If you're like me, you have one person who knows everything about you and vice versa. One person who you've been on wonderful adventures with and stayed up late texting. Someone you would go to the ends of the earth for. Life without them would be pointless and unnerving. That's your best friend, your person. What do you do when you can't do anything?

My best friend has depression and I don't know how much more I can handle.

Everyday I wake up and pray that he will have a good day. I don't pray for God to heal him, but that something fantastic will happen or someone will make him smile. Not an hour goes by that I don't think of him. I don't text him as much as I should, but it's hard when you know something negative might pop up. It's not that I can't handle the negative thoughts, but I hate that he thinks like that.

Having a best friend with depression is like standing in front of a two way mirror. They're in this room where you can see everything they do but they can't see you or what's behind those four walls. You're afraid to shatter the glass, so you try to find ways to get around it but nothing works. You've reached your end.

I may not always be the best friend, and it's hard because I want to be the best friend he's ever had, but patience is wearing thin. I always want to tell him how my day went and what exciting things are happening but what will he say? The problem is it's always the same. I love him, but the constant negativity is exhausting. I want him to know how beautiful life is. I want him to experience it. Going on a hike, hearing a baby laugh, watching the sunset. There are so many incredible things in life. Having a best friend with depression is something I don't wish on anyone.

Life goes on and you meet new people that become special to you. You love hanging out with your other friends and being a part of their life, but there's a sense of betrayal hanging over you. You regret not spending as much time with them but you love being around a different kind of energy. At times you feel so close to them but you also feel like they hate you and don't need you. You need them more than anything, more than they will ever know and more than they will ever accept.

My best friend is my favorite person. Sometimes I think he shouldn't be, but he is. I want him in my life. No matter if he pushes me away, I will still be standing right beside him letting him know that life is worth living. I can see such a bright future for him full of fantastic people and experiences; he just has to cut the crap and live his life.

Having a best friend with depression is wanting to hug them and tell them everything will be OK, but also slapping them and telling them they need to get better. They have to get better, not for you, but for them. I've been through rough patches in my life but I also know how much better life gets if you just work for it. Sometimes I don't think he wants to get better -- I can't tell anymore. What I don't understand is how someone could go everyday feeling terrible about themselves and life?

Having a best friend with depression is frustrating and annoying. Not everyone can handle it, but I believe that if you're willing to stick by their side through the hardest parts, you have a friendship worth fighting for.

I don't have a magical solution to make him or anyone else with depression feel better. I have to tell myself that I need to live my own life and not be constantly worry about his. That for me is one of the hardest parts -- not being able to help them is the worst. No matter how much I tell myself that I need to help him, there is nothing I can really do. And that's a terrible feeling. Continue to have strength and try to understand how hard it is for them. That is all you can do.

To my best friend -- You are the most special person I know, and I love you.