Take on a challenge, they said. It'll be worth it, they said. You'll be fine, they said. One of those three sentences are false. Can you guess which one? Ding ding--it's the third one! Listen, don't get me wrong. This is the year in high school where you really need to g.r.i.n.d. And yeah, it will be worth it in the end. But try telling yourself that during your 20th mental breakdown in the school year.
I currently live off of black coffee and college sweatshirts. These two items are basically my main motivation to get up everyday. Since this is the year of SATs and APs, I really do not have the time to impress anyone I see anymore. Just because of the reason that I really do not care enough to. I go to school for 6 hours a day, walking the hallways like a mutant zombie trying to recall what I just learned for the last 80 minutes in class. As I count down the days to my next break, I am also counting down the days till my next SAT.
Schoolwork does not even begin to pile up the amount of stress I build. I chose to involve myself in a bajillion things in my school, too. Because--I am dumb. I partake in every music group available in my school, musicals, FBLA, cheerleading, National Honor Society--you name it, and I probably do it. I even got myself into getting a freaking job. As I plunge myself into a deeper and deeper hole of work and stress, I try to remember that it is all going to be worth it sooner than later.
Junioritis tearing my soul a part. Since it is May, my motivation is only decreasing from here. As my college process starts to begin, I am only looking forward to becoming a senior at this point. I am way too busy counting down the days of being a senior that I am accidentally forgetting to keep up with the due date of my research paper.
And they ask you-- Where do you want to go? I don't know. What do you want to major in? I'm not sure. Did you get a good SAT score? Who knows. These mind numbing questions only stress you out more. They make you think-- what am I doing?!
As I am writing this, I am also procrastinating on studying SAT Math. Ask me how my priorities are doing. Well to wrap this up all I got to say is--
Junior year sucks.
