Most think that being a stay at home mom is simple and selfish .But for me, it's everything but simple..especially selfish. Instead of waking up to a nice hot cup of coffee I get to wake up to a child covered in poop. This is where the mom "bun" i wear all day originally started. Oh and my coffee's cold, and somehow made its way on top of the dryer with the wipes I've been searching for the past 15 minutes.

But this is just the start of my day.

Let me tell you what i do all day. I play with my kids. I create things to do and food to eat when we are broke. And remind my fiance that we got this, even when i think we don't. I'm the stronghold when it comes to people letting us down and not keeping their word.

But..

Sometimes i forget who i am. And at times, what even makes me happy. So when all you see is a messy house, know that means, i used my cleaning time to find myself or bond with my children. But mostly to reminding myself that it's okay not to be perfect and do it all. That it is okay to cry because I'm tired and haven't had a date night in many months. Or maybe that my friends are too busy enjoying their life to acknowledge I exist until they need something.

I've learned over the years that life isn't about your job title, paycheck, or how big your credit score is. It is about being true to yourself and doing all you can for those especially those who call just to check on you or who understands your needs even if they can only be an ear. It is about love and faith. It is about providing the mental and physical needs of the life you created. But more importantly, it is about being positive and leaning on the Lord during dark times and setting the godly example your children can live by.