He held on to me when I was a little unsteady.


I have not written in over a year.

I can't believe it has been that long, but I think it is because I have simply listened and learned over the past year because that is what I have felt God leading me to do.

I had a car wreck last October. I have not yet shared what happened with many people that night mainly because it is so embarrassing, but I have had more than enough time to process it. During that time, I was in such a bad spot in life. I let thoughts from the enemy all but consume my life. I had everyone fooled into thinking I lived an awesome life and was so happy all the time, but on the inside I was basically dead. I had been emotionally, physically, and mentally drained. I had wondered many times if anyone would notice if I weren't around anymore and who would come to my funeral if anything happened to me. I was living a dark life. That night, I had taken some friends home and decided to "bust a loop" as we call it in the delta, as I had done many nights before. My roommates younger brother asked if he could come with me, but I insisted it was too late for him to be out and he should probably stay at home (I obviously should have taken my own advice). So I set out to nowhere at 2am, listening to sad songs and just thinking about how pitiful my life was. The name of the last song I listened to that night was called "Unsteady". Some of the lyrics were "Hold on, hold on to me, Cause I'm a little unsteady.."

My life was so unsteady. I wanted to please everyone and fell into the patterns of the world, just to feel accepted by earthly people.

Within a few seconds, when looking for the next song to play on my phone, I ran out of road. I was driving way too fast, and looked ahead as I found myself driving straight into a patch of woods. Everything was like slow motion as my car flipped 3 times and landed upside down in between two trees. I was hanging upside down in my car after the car stopped flipping.

I looked up at my hair dangling upside down and all I could think was "Thank you God." I was not scared at all, I was thankful. I literally felt the power of God's arms wrapped around me. I was unsteady, and God had kept me steady through the whole thing.

I felt God with me at the moment, which is something I had not felt in a long time. I wasn't injured that night, but instead I was healed- and have not been the same since.

I say all that to say that I believe sometimes God gives us reminders that He is with us always, even through the parts of life when we don't feel steady. The world is an unsteady place, but we can always turn to Him for stability. The world is always changing, but He never changes.

Whatever happens in this life, remember that it is not "the end of the world" because this world is not the end of anything, but the beginning of something far greater than we can fathom.

(P.S. Shout out to my roommate, bestie, and parents for being there as fast as lightening to come rescue me that night, thankful and indebted to you people :)

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The Truth About Narcan, Insulin, And Drug Prices

"Stupid junkies, I have to pay for my Insulin but they get Narcan FOR FREE. Can you believe that?"



Let's talk about it. Naloxone, commonly referred to as Narcan or Evzio is a "medication designed to rapidly reverse opioid overdose." According to the National Institute on Drug Abuse, Naloxone basically reverses the effects of an overdose.

As you see on Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, and every other social media platform in the world, "junkies" get indirectly bashed, undermined, and in a nutshell, told that they don't deserve a place on earth.

The most common argument used by "non-addicts" is "I have to pay for my Insulin for my diabetes, but they get Narcan for free? Wow, our government sucks and the system is a joke."

For those of you that don't know, diabetes is a disease in which the body's ability to produce or respond to the hormone, insulin, is impaired, resulting in abnormal metabolism of carbohydrates and elevated levels of glucose in the blood and urine.

There are two types of this disease: Type 1 Diabetes and Type 2 Diabetes that result from a variety of different factors. Diabetes can be acquired through genetics but can also be personally obtained through lifestyle, depending on the type. Aside from genetics and being born into a diabetic family, you may also be diagnosed with diabetes as a result of physical inactivity, high blood pressure, abnormal cholesterol, and being overweight. In other words, if you let your body go, don't work out or do some type of physical activity, let your high blood pressure go untreated, and eat unhealthy foods; you have a chance of developing diabetes.

Next, let's talk about prices.

On average, Insulin costs $200 monthly. This depends on the brand, personal insurance, coupons, and other factors such as organizations that help people get cheaper insulin.

Narcan nasal spray costs $130 for a two-time use. You can buy it at CVS Pharmacy (and other pharmacies) in states such as Ohio, Arkansas, California, Minnesota, Mississippi, Montana, New Jersey, North Dakota, Pennsylvania, South Carolina, Tennessee, Utah, and Wisconsin. Some of these states may require a prescription.

Now that you know that Narcan/Evzio isn't free, it's time to talk about other charges that are brought upon addicts when they overdose. If an ambulance is called, they have to pay for it. If they are sent to the emergency room, they also have to pay for that.

The idea that "junkies" get Narcan for free is something society has made up to make drug users feel even more guilt than they already do from having an addiction alone.

Believe it or not, most of us are addicted to something that can be fatal or cause illness/injury. If you eat processed foods or sugar ridden foods every day, chances are you have an addiction to sugar. The withdrawal that someone has from quitting sugar is similar to the withdrawal that one goes through from quitting heroin. You get a splitting headache, you have cold sweats, you are moody, and it makes you sick. If you drink coffee all day on most days and you try to quit, it results in an awful headache for a few days. The addiction to cigarettes and the withdrawal that people go through for that speaks for itself; we all know a smoker or an ex-smoker.

Instead of following social norms, degrading drug users and putting ourselves on a pedestal because we don't use heroin or another "hard drug," we should advocate for the health and stand up for each other. If you see someone on the street that you know is a drug user, pull them aside and pray with them. Help them find a better life. Recommend church, rehab, or any other ideas that may be at your fingertips to mention.

The moral of the story is this: we all have an addiction, hypocrisy is at it's finest thanks to social media, and we are all human. Walk a mile in someone else's shoes before you judge them. It doesn't cost a dime to shed light on someone's life, especially when they are in need.

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20 Things You Find Yourself Saying While Working At A Daycare

"It's okay, your Mom will be right back!"

I spent this summer doing a lot of things, one of which included working at the local daycare. I loved (almost) every minute of it. Here are a few things I found myself and my coworkers saying on the regular.

1. "HEY!!!!!!!"

Whether you're excited to see your kiddos or you are saying it to get their attention, you've probably yelled this.

2. "No."

"Can we go outside now?" No. "Is Miss Jordan going to be our teacher today?" No. "Can we make sliiimeeee???" NO.

3. "Keep your hands to yourself."

When you are 5, there are not many things that are more important at being in the front of the line. Things get physical sometimes and you will have to say this.

4. "Get that out of your mouth."

9 times out of 10, it isn't food in their mouth.

5. "We don't put rocks in your mouth. Get them out of your mouth now."

It is appalling how many 3-year-olds love the taste of rocks.

6. "Eat what you have or don't eat at all."

That sounds mean, but there is no way you like the lunch mom packed yesterday, but don't like it today.

7. "Fire truck, fire truck..." or "The itsy bitsy spider went up the water spout."

You aren't living until you find yourself on the floor for an hour with 2-year-olds singing nursery rhymes.

8. "Use your inside voice" or "INSIDE VOICES!"

Most of the time this one requires using your outside voice, but its whatever works, right?

9. "LINE UP!"

I wonder where we are going now!!!!

10. "Hugs and Bubbles"

11. "Walk down the hall... I said, 'walk!' QUIT RUNNING!"

12. "Do you want to go in time out?"

"No ma'am." Every single time.

13. "Why did you hit ____?"

Usually followed by "I don't know" or "it was an accident!"

14. "Throw that away."

Kids would keep every Lunchable comic if they could, even if they can't read it yet.

15. "Does your child have any allergies?"

They will be allergic to apples but can eat applesauce.

16. "Look how cute ____and so looks today."

17. "Go give this to Miss ____ next door."

18. "What happened? Let's go find a band aid."

To cut crying time in half, pray that the Band-Aid is Frozen or Paw Patrol.

19. "Hey, let's not do that."

When you're feeling nice, but that's not okay.

20. "I love this job."

You might repeat yourself 45 times a day and want to pull your hair out sometimes, but nothing beats getting to spend time with precious kids every day.

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