The Storm
“He has cancer.”
Those three words were a stab to the chest.
It was like a tsunami had come and knocked me down,
under the powerful waves.
Waves that came washing up so fast I had no time to prepare.
Throwing me under.
I couldn't swim to the top.
He is like a storm
Stormy blue eyes piercing into me,
making me feel dangerous yet safe.
His calming voice sweeping over me like a soft blanket.
His mysterious personality and charming smile,
reeling me into his twisted life.
The news came like a dark stormy night.
Unexpected and leaving me rushing to find safety.
The anticipation of knowing there was bad news
left me shaking and unsure.
A million thoughts running through my mind a minute.
I felt it.
At first, it was only a small knot in the pit of my stomach.
But then it was a gnawing,
something clawing its way up to my chest.
Like a heavy, hot, weight was sitting on my lungs.
I thought I might explode.
It was like inhaling smoke,
suffocating slowly.
Then came the tears.
Single tear drops falling from my eyes,
like rain falling from the clouds.
Overwhelming thoughts consumed my mind,
like a wildfire spreading through a forest.
Too fast for me to handle.
Overwhelmed by the thought of what could happen,
sobs wracking my body.
I couldn't breathe.
The feeling of being crushed,
by an unseen darkness
And you can't find your way out.
All the emotion builds up in my chest,
leaving me wanting to scream but nothing's coming out.
Not being able to hold myself up any longer,
Sadness consuming the darkest parts of my thoughts.
Too scared to breathe,
to move,
to think straight.
Just collapsing,
letting out anguished cries of pain and sadness.
A hurricane.
That's what he is.
Leaving behind a trail of radiating sun and darkness.
His life isn't perfect,
far from it.
It's a wonder how he has any courage,
When his life is such a mess.
He is a hurricane,
he destroys lives in the simplest of ways,
Destroying thoughts,
destroying hearts,
And destroying the ground beneath him.
The pull he has on each person individually is something so great,
it can't be put into words.
He is a hurricane.
Whirling into your life,
Dragging you in circles,
Leaving you breathless.
Trying to crawl out of the vast space,
Of your mind to find answers
Trying to reach the light,
grasping for answers
Answers you will never find.
