Dear Lover of my heart,
You have been there since the day I opened my weary eyes
With every shaky breath I take
Your love has shown no disguise
In my weakest and lowest of days
I cry out in agony
Then I see your face.
I see you in the people serving me food with a gentle smile
I see you in the classrooms with wide eyed children as they freak out over bugs
I see you in the eyes of family members I have not seen in a while
I see you in my two year old best friend who gives me endless hugs
I see you in my friends' face as they light up with joy
Telling me about the things they are doing in their life
I see you.
I see you in the happiest of times
I see you in the darkest
I see you when I am up at 3 am wondering if I am even good enough
I see you when I have been made a fool by people who I thought were friends
I see you when I do not believe I deserve to be loved
I saw you when I tried to make my end.
You were not the bad.
I was in pain
In a constant of sad
Trying to feel a wholeness I could not seem to attain
Alone, afraid, ashamed.
But you lit your match
My cold heart started to feel whole
I saw hope, I felt comfort, I felt peace
You renewed my soul
And all that heartache I could finally release.
Broken, depressed, suicidal, angry, isolated, and dirty
Healed, joyful, revived, peaceful, connected, and clean
I AM BEAUTIFUL, I AM WORTHY, I AM LOVED
Your love is written throughout my story
The tribulations have been overcome
By you weaving in your glory
I never believed I would make it this far
But that was not your plan
You had plans to prosper
And in a moment you lent out your hand
I grabbed it and will never let go
Because as I have walked this Earth
Your love remains as so
So lover of my heart,
I will praise you till my dying breath
I will give you my all
Even when I have nothing left
In your name I will call
No matter the dark
I see your light
When pain tries to leave is mark
You turn the mud into white
YOU ARE THE I AM
And my one true love.
I love you and praise you.
You are my GOD.
I pray that as I show others who I used to be
In it they can find you
And feel your glory.