I'm sorry I'm such a mess.
I've been like this for a long time,
So please do not take it out on yourself.
I just want you to know one thing,
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry that I always feel like I'm not good enough,
I'm sorry that I will always take it out on you.
I always think that you will leave for someone better,
So I push you away before you can leave me all alone.
I'll do anything I can,
To push you away,
To make you leave me,
To make you hate me,
To make you not want me anymore.
I'm insecure,
And that is one thing that I cannot help.
I will always want to be someone else,
I have always wanted to be skinnier,
Prettier,
Funnier,
Smarter,
Better for you.
I'm sorry you thought loving me would be easy,
I've never been too easy,
I always set myself up to get hurt but i'll never change it.
It might have been easy for me to love you,
But i'm a mess.
I'm chaos in a very small person.
I know i'm a mess.
I really try not to be.
I just wish you would try harder to love me,
To stay with me when things get hard,
When I feel the world crashing down on top of me.



















