For those who are lucky enough, death typically does not strike that often early in life. More times than not, if death does strike you early in life, it is because of an elderly family member and nothing more. However, for the unlucky ones, the occurrence of death creeps its way into our lives in an awkward and confusing way.
Most get caught up in the everyday routine that is life resulting in fact that we’ve turned ourselves into walking ghosts. Forced to go to school, have a job, maintain friends and positive relationships with others, and for what? To better ourselves? To better our own lives? To make the people around us proud?
But when we're not caught up in our everyday routine, sometimes we forget that our routines could be taken away... in a split second.
While its been almost a year since you’ve passed, your memorial card always brings forth a few moments of sadness when it catches my eye throughout the day. And I always ask myself why it is you’re not here. Why your life path was chosen to end so soon, and why I’ve had to teach myself that these questions will never be satisfiably answered.
What a lot of us do not realize is that when you’re young, there is an invisible bubble constantly around you. This bubble is put there by your subconscious to protect you from all of the things you don't know how to handle yet. And when something significant enough happen when this bubble breaks, you’re unprotected, confused, and left to try to understand these feelings on your own.
I think one of the sickest things I’ve ever heard is that when someone passes away young, there is always a meaning behind it. The meaning is talked about as a way to appreciate what you have or how life is a precious thing. While all of that is true, it's numbing.
If you were to ask me, I think that while death is an inevitable part of life, death is never fair and justifiable. While we continue to move on with our lives, we certainly never forget. Each missed birthday and Christmas is a reminder that while someone may physically be gone, they are still very well alive in your memory and thats something that can never be taken away.
