To the Dog I Lost While I Was at College

To the Dog I Lost While I Was at College

You were and are the hardest dog to lose.

Losing a pet is never an easy thing to go through let alone try to go through it when you were away at college.

I apologize for not being there when you were at your weakest point and that I wasn't there to lay with you and say goodbye; to hold you in your final moments.

Part of me knows you were wondering where I was and the other part of me likes to think you were glad I wasn't there to see you like that. I wish I would have been though.

You were and are the hardest dog to lose. You were the last dog in the house so I will be arriving to an empty house this weekend. That will be the hardest part.

I won't hear your paws attacking the floor when you hear my voice in the house. I won't be jumped on and have millions of kisses planted on my cheeks. Nor will I have you to sit with me out the deck.

Every owner goes through the pain of feeling like they didn't do enough or didn't play or love their dog enough.

The truth is, I know you knew just how much I loved you.

I remember that day we picked you out; you were something special. You didn't care about playing with your brothers and sisters, you were more interested in me. In that moment I knew you were the one we were taking home.

You refused to stay in the box that we had in the bed of the truck with toys and a blanket for you, you wanted to be with me. You jumped through the small back window and curled up in my lap and fell asleep.

The next months were enjoyable yet a pain as we tired to train you. You destroyed all of your stuffed toys we got you so we quickly stopped buying those; our house looked like it had just snowed.

We would spray you with water to get you to stop barking and truth be told you weren't much of a barker but you knew you got water when you did so when you were thirsty you would bark.

I always wanted you to sleep with me when I was younger but every time I moved you thought I wanted to play so you never stayed still.

I remember coming home from school and you waiting for me at the door or even in the car when I was picked up because you wanted to go with.

I remember all the times I would sit on the deck with you while you played and then quickly tired yourself out and you'd lay by my feet.

Then you got older.

You grabbed your toys whenever you were happy and didn't want to play, just carry them around. You learned a few more tricks like how to back up when you knew you were too close for us to throw you a treat.

You went through a phase of not being able to make it up the stairs on your own but you over came that.

Your nose started to show your age, turning white. However, you weren't moving slower.

This coming weekend I was excited to come home and play with you since it wasn't supposed to rain and give you your first spring bath. Little did I know you'd go downhill in a matter of 17 hours.

To the dog I lost while I was away at college, I'm sorry I wasn't there with you but I hope you know that I love you and I am going to miss you. No dog will ever replace you but I hope you're up there with your partner in crime.

I'll see you again someday.

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An Open Letter To Every Girl With A Big Heart, Except When It Comes To Herself

Because it's so much easier to love everyone around you before yourself.

They say the key is that you have to "love yourself before you can love anyone else," or before "anyone can love you."

For those who deal with mass amounts of anxiety, or have many insecurities, that can be an extremely hard task. It seems much easier to tell your friend who is doubting herself that she looks great in that top than to look in the mirror and feel the same about yourself. It is much easier to tell your significant other that everything is going to be OK than to believe it will be when something goes wrong in your life. It becomes easier to create excuses for the ones around you than for yourself, and this is because you have such a big heart. You want those that you love to be happy and worry-free, yet you spend nights thinking about everything you have on your plate, about what you did wrong that day, fearing if someone in your life is mad at you, believing that you will never be good enough yet convincing everyone else that they are.

You are the girl with the biggest heart, yet you can't love yourself the way you care for everyone else in your life. There are many reasons that you should love yourself, though, and that's something that everyone around you is willing to tell you.

You're thoughtful.

Before doing anything, you always consider how it is going to affect those around you. You don't want to do anything that could hurt someone, or something that could make someone mad at you. It does not take much to make you happy, just seeing others happy does the job, and it is that simple. Because of this, you remember the little things. Meaningful dates, small details, and asking someone how their day was is important to you, and it makes those around you feel important too. You simply just want the people that you care about to be happy, and that is an amazing trait.

You're appreciative.

You don't need a big, fancy, and expensive date night to make you happy. Whether it's a picnic on the beach or a night in watching a movie, you're happy to just be with the person that you love. You appreciate every "good morning" text, and it truly does mean something when someone asks how you are. You tend to appreciate the person that you're with more than the things that they provide and for that, your sincerity will never go unnoticed.

You have a lot of love in your heart.

Every "I love you" has meant something, just as you remember the smallest moments that have meant the most to you. You remember the look in your significant other's eyes when they told you that for the first time. You remember the smile on your best friend's face when you told them that everything was going to be OK and that you would always be there. You remember the swell of happiness your parents felt when you decided to surprise them with a trip home one day, and you thrive off of all of that love.

You don't give up on the people you love, even if they have given you a reason to.

It is a foreign idea to just drop someone from your life, even if they betrayed you. You try to look at their mistake from every stance, not wanting to provide an excuse for them, but to give them another chance. Not everyone deserves it, and that is something that you learn along the way, but you feel good in the sense that you gave them a chance even if no one else would.

It's OK to not love yourself all the time. It's normal, and natural to stand in the mirror and think about everything wrong. And it's OK to love other people, even when you can't feel the same about yourself. But your big heart is why you should love yourself. There are so many reasons that you are a beautiful person, and the people that you spend all your time caring about feel that you have so much more to offer the world, and yourself.

So, next time you think about what you don't like about yourself, remember what makes you special –– the size of your heart and all of the love in it, and then share that love with yourself.

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How To Convince Your Parents To Let You Get A Cat

Yes... It's this type of article.


DISCLAIMER: My desperation and my convincing claims are what got me my cat. By no means will ANY of these things actually work for you, it really depends on how convincing you are and if your parents are actually willing to listen. I mean, if you follow my first option, there's NO WAY your parents will deny you a cat, I'm just saying.

Take these four options and go get yourself a cat!

Make a powerpoint.

Yes, I'm very serious. Make a freaking powerpoint. All the things your parents tell you to do that you don't end up doing, make a list of them all on your powerpoint and prove to them that you'll take care of it all. BUT, you actually have to do those things if you want to keep your point convincing, because your parents aren't going to get you that cat if you don't follow what you promised on your powerpoint. As for myself, I didn't exactly make one when I convinced my parents. I actually put together a contract that listed all the things I would do around the house in order to get this cat. Then, I added a signature spot at the bottom and made them sign it. Keep in mind, I was like 13 at the time and I thought that would be the best way to trick my parents into promising me a cat. I mean, the contract itself didn't work, but what I promised on the contract did!

Take responsibility for your current pet.

For the people who don't have any pets, then I would suggest you move onto the next option. This one is for those who have a pet they claim they take care of when it's really their moms doing all the feeding and cleaning (I'm not wrong, am I?). You want a cat SO bad but your parents refuse to get one because of one reason: They don't want to take responsibility for a cat when they're already taking care of a different pet. You might be able to say the cat will be yours and you'll be the one feeding and cleaning it, but we all know that's not true. But, if you're seriously determined to convince your parents and you really want this cat, then here's your best convincing option: You know the pet you already have? Yeah, it's not the family's pet, it's yours now. Get off the couch and go feed, clean, and play with that pet until your parents finally understand you're not joking around. If you can convince them you're responsible enough to get a cat on top of taking care of another animal, I guarantee you'll have that cat in less than a week (don't hold me to that).

Volunteer or get a job that works with animals

I have a job at a boarding house for animals, and I'm honest when I say I've learned a lot there. If you don't already have a pet and you aren't quite sure what taking care of an animal entails, then I highly suggest you put yourself to work at an animal shelter. You don't have a pet to take responsibility for, so the next best option is finding a job or volunteer option where you learn how to actually take care of an animal. There's a lot of responsibility that comes with owning a cat, and if you get this job and prove to your parents that you're worthy of this cat and can actually take care of it (WITHOUT YOUR PARENTS HELP, THIS IS YOUR CAT), then that cat will totally be yours in no time (again, don't hold me to that).

Clean your room!!!

For those of us who are WAY to lazy to keep our rooms clean, this one will probably make your parents gift you the freaking cat because they'll be so happy that you actually put effort into cleaning your room. I mean, most of us have probably gone at least an hour without our parents screaming at us for having a tissue on our bedroom floor. Am I right or am I right? So, if you really want this cat... pick up the tissue, put it in the trash, and maintain a tissueless room for as long as you can until your parents finally get you the dang cat. I'm telling you, seeing a spotless room will probably make your parents shed tears of joy. Those tissues on your floor really make your parents angry. If you pick them up, you get your cat. It's as simple as that (It's really not).

I mean, let's be real. If you follow three out of the four options I just gave you, you're almost guaranteed a cat. The only thing you can't do is make promises you know you can't keep. Don't convince your parents you'll take care of the cat just to have your parents do all the work when you get it. You want the cat, you take responsibility. But I'll warn you, although cats might be easier than dogs, they can still drive you up the wall with annoyance. Prepare yourself.

Just know I warned you.

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