This was the day all my problems began. June of 2017. My closest friends know that I have been sick since the beginning of the the summer. I've enjoyed everything the best I can, and throughout it all one person was there 24/7. She is my family. Those of you who know I am sick, and those of you who know why I'm grateful to have you in my life and always visiting me after school and after my doctor appointments.

Checking in if I am okay and how it all went. Since the beginning of school I've had appointments after another, missing a week and half worth of school and having a lot of sick days. My teachers all know I am sick and have been very supportive into keeping me caught up. I have my final test to see if what I have is severe or treatable immediately, and if there will be more in the future. In this picture my sister stayed with me from early morning to 3 am when she went home only to go to school again that day, and I stayed overnight at the hospital. She didn't leave my side and hasn't since.

When we found out how bad I was, my mom pulled her into a room and she came out crying and looked me in the eye telling me how much she loved me and how I will get through it all. I have never felt so much love towards anyone. This person is my soulmate. My best friend and my family. I cannot thank her enough for all she has done for me and my family. I know that whatever I have if I need anything from someone, she will be right there.

So Nermeen, this is my message to you that you may not have much family here, but do not forget that I am your family and you are mine. We will get through this. I never show how appreciative I am to have you and i want you to know I am. I will fight with all I have to get past this. I love you all.

UPDATE:

I was hospitalized at the beginning of 2018, and out in February. From in and out of E.R rooms and doctors appointments, I never realized how much I HATE the hospital.

1. I had an NG tube up my nose because I couldn't eat

2. Nermeen had bacon and eggs, a whole buffet - while I had the tube

3. She loved me so much she skipped school for a day to take care of me.

4. the nurses are nice, the doctors are A**H****

5. They wake you up EVERY 4 HOURS TO CHECK ON VITALS SO FORGET SLEEP!!!

6. I got out only for my post check up to be wrong and my doctor failed to tell me I had to continue triple therapy for another two months :(

Months later...!

So as college is about to begin,

Where do I even begin? Thinking about countless memories we've had over the past four years never fails to bring a smile to my face. Texting each other every grueling weekday morning as we woke up at 6 a.m. for school, gossiping and helping each other's with homework throughout the day, and giving each other updates on our lives every two hours, we have been inseparable. We spent birthdays and holidays with each other, went on vacations together, and you're family, and had "girls' night" bi-weekly, but in a short amount of time, our friendship, location and lives will be different. There are so many things I will miss about you two including:
* My ability to FaceTime you at all hours of the day with my current dilemma, even if it's just helping me choose between two outfits.
* Our jam sessions in the car, music blasting, bass bumping and surprisingly good rap skills for two girls. Food. Fat food. Who else is going to find some way to justify me eating my body weight in mac and cheese and fries and shakes?
* Our movie nights, where we can sings to the songs of "Grease", "Hairspray" and "High School Musical" without a care in the world. Also your generosity in letting me watch "White Chicks" for the thousandth time.
* Your moms. Every girl knows that their best friend's mom is basically like a second mother, and it's even better when she tells me she likes me better than you and vice versa
* When you steal all the covers from me in the middle of the night, or when we have our naps and push me into the corner of the bed - it's called sharing. * Or in a hospital bed with me watching movies and skipping school to make sure I was never alone in the 4 white walled room.
* Our disagreements. What girl likes to fight with their best friends, even if it's about something incredibly stupid, and is over in ten minutes.
Finally, I'm just going to miss you. You're my absolute best friends & the girl who always has my back, and the girl who never fails to put a smile on my face. I love you and will never replace you two in my life and heart: from living 1 Mile away - 103 miles in August, I love you.