At first I didn't get what all of the hype was about. I never saw the show and, to be honest, I wasn't too interested. But after I finished "Friends" and "Gossip Girl," there was a void in my life that couldn't be filled. I felt so empty without Chuck and Blair's never ending romance. My world wasn't the same without Chandler's dry humor.

I never thought I'd find love like that again until I stumbled upon one of Shonda Rhimes many shows. As I clicked play on season one episode one, I recall saying aloud, "Eh. Why not?"

And nothing was the same.

My life was forever changed by these characters who I came to know and love dearly. See, I've always had that problem. Whether it's a good book or a good show, I always get overly attached to the characters. I somehow make them real.

So, you can understand my surprise when literally EVERYONE started to die. I don't think I have ever cried this much over fictional characters! These are the times Rhimes ripped my heart from my chest.

1. When Meredith begged Derek to choose her...and he didn't.

Yeah, I cried. I can't help it! I get so emotional when it comes to these two! And I seriously thought he would pick her! Like come on, Derek! Really?! Addison?

2. That time Denny proposed. And then died.

Lord help me, I'm tearing up now just remembering this scene! I was so happy for Izzie! It seemed as if she was finally going to be happy with a good guy. And then he just ups and dies! Seriously, Shonda?! We can't have just one happy ending?

3. That moment when George appears on the other side of the elevator and you realize he's dead.

Why? Why George?! He was the good one! Bailey named her baby after him for Christ's sake! The show was never the same after him. I miss him so much.

4. When Owen cheated on Cristina.

This kind of killed all of my hopes and dreams. They were my favorite couple! The other Twisted Sister finally found love! Cristina found someone who loved her for who she was, unlike Burke. But then he up and cheated with a random woman whose name he couldn't even remember! This devastated me.

5. Bailey almost got shot!

I don't think I could have continued this show if Bailey died too. It would have been way too much to lose The Nazi along with everyone else. That entire episode was super intense! Smart move saying you were a nurse, Miranda!

6. Derek got shot.

My heart stopped. I think I cried harder than Meredith. You would have thought he was my husband! And then stupid, pregnant Meredith goes and tells the gunman to shot her instead of trying to kill Derek again!

7. When Mark and Lexie died.

I haven't watched another episode after that. I just need a break; I'm still in too much pain. I cried harder than I did the first time I had my heartbroken. Words can't really explain how much pain I felt as Mark watched the love of his life die and then die in the next episode.

Soon I'll start watching the show again. I just need to brace myself for the next time Shonda breaks my heart.