To the boy that ruined my senior year or at least tried to, thank you.

This isn't a hate letter but possibly a thank you because I wouldn't be where I am now without your negative and manipulative actions. Thank you for going away to college and cheating on me within the second week because it taught me not to just give anyone my trust. Thank you for constantly ignoring me knowing I am a person whom has anxiety because you would've rather gotten drunk with your buddies.

Thank you for constantly using me until you found someone you wanted to be with. Thank you for the emotional abuse you constantly tortured me with. Thank you for always making me feel like I wasn't the only girl you were with. Thank you for arguments and slamming doors behind my back. Thank you for leaving when it was convenient enough for you. Although all of these seem negative which at the time they were completely these now helped me to grow as a person. If you are ever upset about a guy or girl remember that it is most likely going to help you later on down the road.

My anxiety is something I wear on my back and I have no shame or embarrassment with having it. After I cut you off after constantly giving me anxiety for months on end I realized that you were the toxins in my blood steam, I wasn't crazy and I didn't need help I needed you out of my life because the second you were out of it I haven't had anxiety like that since. Your alcoholism has taught me that I deserve a guy that can give up a can of beer once in a while instead of drinking sixteen and forgetting my name.

Using me did not benefit you but it did benefit me. When someone uses you it is because you are worth something worth using, don't look at it so negatively look at it as in someone wants you so don't give it to them unless they are committed to you and only you this way you don't feel awful about it months on end especially when he gets a new girlfriend.

Your new girlfriend makes me happy because she is dealing with everything that I could not deal with. She is putting up with your constant drinking and slurred words and the fake I love you's in bed. I deserved better then drunk I love you's.

Although I was not the only girl you were seeing at the time thank you because it made me pick myself off of the ground kind of like gum stuck to the bottom of Lou Vuitton's. You are the gum and I am the Lou Vuitton's. It made me want to better myself because then came along that someone that only wanted me.

All of these things seem negative and someone hateful but it is an actual thank you because I have grown so far as a person. I am no longer the girl that sits at the bottom of her showers and cries and screams but rather the girl that sings and dances in the shower. I am the girl that smiles instead of frowns. I am happy that you showed me someone that I do not want to be with in my life ever again. Thank you for bringing out the darkest sides of me for I would have never seen the brightest if not.