I've spent so much time wondering when my time is going to happen. You know the time I'm talking about, I'm sure. My time at a great job. My time at an amazing relationship with the most Godly man. My time to look good and feel good. My time to be so filled with God's grace that I'm unstoppable. I've waited and waited and waited for my time, my comeback. What became clear to me recently though is ... my time now is my time for a comeback.
I shouldn't be waiting for the perfect job to make this time of my life amazing. I shouldn't be waiting for a man to make me feel "complete" or "whole." I shouldn't be waiting to look good in order to feel good about who I am. I shouldn't be waiting until I've become the perfect Christian to bask in God's grace and glory. I shouldn't be putting my life on hold because I'm waiting for the perfect time to start my life.
I've decided that this, this time right now will be the time that I stop asking God why some doors are continuing to close even though I've done my best to open them. I'll stop asking God when the perfect guy will present himself to me. I'll stop asking God to love me even though I continue to do the things I know are displeasing to Him simply because I'm deciding to put my wants above His. I'll stop being too busy to start my comeback.
God is opening doors all around me to step into. He's also continuing to close some doors because that's what's best for me and they are no longer leading me anywhere. I'm beginning to consider the fact that God is not closing doors for me because He is trying to keep me from good but because He's keeping me from the bad. I'll start my comeback now because the only time I have now is the only time that I am guaranteed to truly have.
So, for you - take that job or don't. Eat that pint of ice cream or go to the gym. Start that new, but different hobby or don't. Complain or be positive. It's either will or won't. Your comeback doesn't have to begin tomorrow because well, for me, it's starting now. All you have to do is make the choice. Make the choice to choose happiness over despair. Choose to take a leap of faith instead of questioning your faith. Choose to worship God and his glory even when you know you aren't worthy of His unending, amazing love. Choose to love yourself because you are made in the image of the One who created you. Today could be the perfect day for a comeback, for a revelation, for that new start you've been waiting for. Today could be the day that you truly embrace life, love, and the pursuit of happiness. Today could be your day to open that door and walk right through it. No time will be 100% perfect for a comeback ... so take this time right now and make your own perfect moments.
