I apologize for taking my bad days out on you.

So many times I'd come home from a bad day and you’d simply say “hey, what’s going on?” The same thing you ask me verbatim EVERY time you call me on your way home from work, and instead of a “it was okay”, I'd come at you with a bitchy response and rush you off the phone. I'd continue to be nasty to you when you got home and when you’re the last person I should be mean to.

I apologize for getting annoyed when you ask about my love life.

Although you are extremely noisy, I’m sorry for not letting you intervene. Although some of that is justified because your matchmaking in the past wasn't the best. BUT for the most part you are always looking out for my best interest. You know me better than anyone and to think your advice was unworthy of me to listen was nothing shy of rude.

I apologize for calling you to pick up me and 7 of my friends at midnight

After receiving a license these calls became less and less, but in middle school these were nothing short of a pain in the butt for you. I’m sorry for telling you I had a ride home just so you’d stop asking me, for me to just ask you. I’m sorry for sometimes making you drive and pick me up. Now that I drive I understand how annoying it is to drive all over, and you did it and even waited to yell at me until we dropped everyone off. Lucky for us both those rides have turned to rare occasions.

I apologize for always thinking you know where everything is.

A shoe, shirt, bobby pins, mail, anything and everything I just assume you know its location. I think that because you usually do, and if you don’t the third spot or so is usually where it will be. Even while I’m at school I'll call and if daddy picks up, you know I'll just ask him to put you on so you can help me. I’m sorry for assuming but you’ve given me reason.

I apologize for blowing you off to hangout with my friends.

I’m so sorry that when you wanted to hangout with me I’d choose to see them over you. I apologize for skipping mall dates and lunch dates and rushing out from dinner just to go sit at one of my friends houses. I apologize for not taking off work the days you had off so we could hangout. I regret skipping days of lying by the pool with you just to sit inside and watch TV. I’m sorry I chose to do pointless things instead of taking the time I had to spend with you.

I apologize for taking you for granted.

For all the times I assumed you’d come to my rescue. As a mother you see that as your job, but not everyone has a mother as devoted as you. I take for granted that you’re only a phone call away and I can talk to you whenever I please. I take for granted how involved you’ve been in my life, not just being my mom but my best friend. I take for granted that your still here while some people unfortunately cannot say the same. I’m sorry I never fully realized how you had nothing but my best interest at heart. I apologize for taking your hugs and your unconditional love for granted.

Last but not least I apologize for waiting this long to apologize.

After my 19 years of living lets just say there are a handful of times I owed you an apology and went and slammed my bedroom door instead. So I’m sorry for all the times I didn’t say sorry. I’m sorry its taken me this long to apologize for these things because you made it seem even though I was wrong that it didn’t hurt you. You truly deserve a lot more than a simple apology and I never even gave you that while I was a rambunctious bratty teen. But I am forever grateful for you and all the times you forgave me without me even apologizing.

Love you always and forever