Are you one of those people that will listen to Taylor Swift and become emotional at night? I certainly am. My best friend, Lex and I will get in the car, roll down the windows, and drive past glowing stoplights, listening to the sweet strings of Taylor Swift in love. I always feel this warm glow fill me up when I listen to her music. "Enchanted" does me in. The last time I sat in Lex's car and wistfully dreamed of love was in early January. I didn't realize that six months after that last drive, I would be completely in love. Yet, I am. I am overwhelmed by love. Completely head over heels.
I have never been in love before. But I recognize it in my boyfriend. I see it in our relationship. I know I am in love, and I know he loves me back. It is sweet and powerful. I want to always hold his hand. I am so thankful for his love. For the longest time, I knew I was in a position to date myself. I was content being single, and there were so many things that I needed to work on. But then, I ran out of things. There was very little for me to do alone. I wanted to progress as a person, and I couldn't think of ways to do it by myself. I wanted another person beside me. I didn't necessarily want that person to be the end-all be-all of my happiness, but I wanted so much. I wanted a person to share all of my emotions with, I wanted someone to make me smile and I wanted someone who was courageous and passionate and persistent at helping me conquer my fears. I found that person. And goodness, I am so thankful.
Love is such a sweet goodness. I don't have any good words to describe it, I just know that my heart swells when I think of his smile. I never thought that I would find someone who was patient with my hesitation. I never thought that I would find someone to tell me that I am enough. I never thought that I would find someone who would put up with my craving for affection. But he is all of those things. He is my Taylor Swift song (Boy, does that sound lame). I didn't think that there would be someone whom I would go out of the way for to look at cat shirts. I didn't see myself making waffles at 10:00 p.m. or driving two and a half hours multiple times a month to see a guy whom I missed so desperately. But I am doing those things, and I am so happy because of it. I am in love with someone who will watch little kid movies with me, make sure I have my fill of ice cream, and laugh when I get scared at violent scenes in movies. I am in love with someone who is strong-minded and kindhearted, who loves puppies and is good with kids, who cares about his future and those around him. I am so in love.
Vladimir Nabokov wrote, "It is late now, I am a bit tired, the sky is irritated by stars. And I love you, I love you, I love you -- and perhaps this is how the whole enormous world, shining all over, can be started - out of five vowels and three consonants." And the sky is filled with stars, I am in love, and Taylor Swift is singing in the background.