Have you ever been to a place where you thought you'd never be before? That was me last night. I never thought I'd be in a position where going to jail for a night would help me realize that I need to really start putting myself before anyone else in the healthiest of ways ever. My friends and I went out to enjoy a show from my favorite childhood band growing up. Unfortunately, because of the events that lead us to the arrest, we did not even get to see the band. No fellas, I still haven't gotten to see my favorite band but I am way closer than I was two days ago, one day I am.
It was all going smooth until things escalated quickly and I ended up with cops in my face all because I was trying to save my drunk friend from getting into trouble with boys. Believe it or not, this happens more often than not, where I bend myself over backward three times and then some to try and help a brother out because that is what my compassionate heart tells me to do so but at the end of it all, I always end up getting f*cked over. Of course, everything that happens to us comes with a lesson learned and what I really took from this was that life sometimes puts us through the worst so we can see that we too can sometimes go through things we never imagined and it's only because we need to learn a lesson through that.
My lesson learned was that no matter how much you care for others, others will always first care for themselves before you, so you might as well put yourself first through every situation. It's a form of self- love in all its good radical ways. America didn't teach us that, so I can see why it's so uncommon to not know how to love oneself and to be able to see that once we do, we can all love others so much more. See, if my friend and I would have known better we wouldn't have gotten that drunk and we wouldn't have resorted to causing trouble with the police. My friend's mom was blaming me for getting her daughter drunk and for being crazy, little did she know that I was actually in this mess only because her daughter couldn't handle alcohol and things resulted in this mess.
Another lesson learned is that people are so quick to assume especially when there loved ones are in danger. Maybe next time we can stop and ask questions before blaming others for the thoughts occurring in your head? Maybe you'll be liked more that way because, honey, right now I really don't like you. Overall, the lessons I learned through getting locked up in jail are that society norms are so true in jail. Cops like inflicting pain on you with any chance they get, is this the system we are built under? Where is the love? I end this with more questions than answers, but this is a good thing. I've also learned to love myself, the parts of me I have been trying so hard to disown and forget, but I will always put myself first. Consider that will make your life and mine easy, maybe instead of assuming just ask people, it's not that hard. What a day, what a strange day. I feel so f*cked in many many ways, that I will only come to understand in the coming days. I hate you but I love you friend, our bond is only stronger after this, that's life, it happens.
