The truth about love is that you never really see it coming. Ever. And when it happens, you’re already in too deep to stop yourself. You can’t help it. You fall hard and you fall fast and suddenly nothing makes sense without them. Even the little things like waking up in the morning get harder and harder to do without them. But you fall for it anyway. You fall in so deep that you know there’s no turning back even if you tried. You know it’s going to be a hell of a roller coaster but you figure you’ve come this far, why not go all in and see where it takes you. Falling in love is like small little gifts that you never knew you wanted that add up create an enormous gift that fills a giant place in your life. Suddenly you have something that you never knew you wanted or needed.
Then suddenly all of that stops one day. Everything gets more and more complicated as the time goes on. Life comes at you hard and fast and that thing that used to be so pure and selfless is now the thing that keeps you up at night in constant worry. Those late sleepless nights become even more frequent and before you know it, it’s spiraling downward faster than you ever thought it could. Suddenly this roller coaster of a ride is coming to a fast and abrupt end that jerks you back so hard your head is spinning, your stomach has dropped, you feel more nauseous than ever before, and you’re wondering why you ever even chose to get on this ride knowing that in the end, whenever it ended you would feel just like this.
You question why you would make an insane decision to put yourself in a position where you know the outcome would make you feel like you just got the wind knocked out of you and the carpet pulled from under you. Why? Why this person? Why at this time? Why under these circumstances? The truth is, no one knows. Not you, not the other person, not your friends, not their friends. No one knows. No one knows why you fell so hard for this person and let them in so deeply. The truth is, this is what was supposed to happen when it did and you really didn’t have much say so in the matter. The universe said that you were supposed to fall in love when you did and that when it ended is when it needed to. You really had no control over stopping it from ending. And I know I know, some people think you always have control over situations in your life but the truth is that sometimes you just really don’t. Sometimes you have given everything time and time again just to see it work only to still end up nauseous and like a piece of you has just been ripped open. When the universe wants something to be over, trust me it makes sure it is over, buried and never to be dug up again until it’s ready to be.
The truth is, love hurts. It will take you on the biggest roller coaster ride of your life only to come to a sketching halt. No one is ever ready for that ending and there really is no way to ever be ready for it. Sometimes it comes so unexpected and out of left field that you wished you had seen it coming. Sometimes you see it coming from miles away but still, hope that there is more that can be done to make the ride go on for longer or any way to interfere with it stopping. Whether you see it coming from miles away or are knocked on your ass by it, it will hurt. And the only thing you can do during that time is put yourself first. Make sure that you self-care and have your best interest in mind always. The truth is, yes falling in love was magical but what is even more magical is the falling in love that happens after it. The falling in love that makes you love yourself regardless of who is around, and I think that is one of the reasons falling in love happens; so that people fall out of love and learn to fall more in love with themselves.
