As of Saturday my laptop was ripped out of my hands. I may or may not have spilled juice on it previously, and they may or may not fix the one problem because of their policy of fixing everything (might as well buy a new one). So my access to Netflix, my email, and everything else is gone. This kind of opened my eyes to the dependancy I have on my electronics and what it has done to me.

I'm not going to start a spiel on how electronics are ruining our generation and our ability to communicate. Actually, I will leave that to this guy to do that. However, what I want to say is that goodness, I'm obsessed.

I miss my easy access to see everything on my laptop. Yet, here I sit typing on my Kindle while looking through my phone and watching TV. I have all of my electronics, but I'm still whining for my laptop. This made me stop and think about how I spend my time.

I find myself usually curled up on my couch watching one of my favorite shows or channels. (Food Network and HGTV I'm talking about you!) Then I'm going through Facebook, Twitter, and Instagram (repeat a few more times). Lately I have been trying to be on Pinterest at the same time. This means that I have been caught up in the world of likes, pins, and laziness. I have been dissecting things in such a superficial way and getting the Social Media Jealousy bug.

I see photos of some amazing shots and posts of some real impactful things. I mean yes, of course I'm touched, but then I compare them to my own stuff. Comparing. Something that I have been doing to myself way too much. It's something I fall captive to and it causes me to be something that I'm not.

It's easy to allow comparing yourself to change who you are. It's easy to see how we try and mold ourselves to be something that will get more likes. However, the differences in each and every single one of us is something that should get thumbs up from everyone. And even if it doesn't who cares. Truly all that matters is how we see and feel about ourselves.

I have heard that even if you do lose that weight, wear that outfit, or even contour properly (how though?) you will always have a warped view on yourself due to those thoughts in your head. In fact, that is something that I have lived. Looking at what others have doesn't ever make it better, but realizing all that I have been blessed with sure does. When I remember that God has placed some awesome things in my personal story other's stories aren't something that I sit around and whine for.

Ok, so I guess I did talk about how electronics have warped us a bit. However, you better believe that I am going to continue my quest of being on all of my electronics and "multitasking". However, I can spend less screen time and learning more about me and loving that person.