You can't plan to be happy. There's no 'I will wake up on this particular Friday morning with a smile on my face.' You don't decide what gets you down; certain things just poke up in the wrong spot. No matter the day, no matter the mood, you are the way you are. And I don't think we should have to explain or defend that.
Recently I was talking to a friend about how odd it is that we can so naturally change ourselves in the moment. Like when you're talking to someone and want to sound impressive, funny, or cool and your voice completely changes octaves and you can't even control what's happening with your face. Somehow before you even let yourself think, your body has already decided how you need to present yourself.
Even with your subconscious factored out, there is so much pressure these days. Perceptions are looser given that rarity and expressiveness are more acceptable and yet there are still relevant stigmas we either do or don't want to fit into. No matter what time, people have always grown up growing into what they see as generally good. So different to each person, this persona we want to give off is ideal, but not realistic.
No matter how blessed your life is, rainy days come over even the best of us. I don't necessarily mean this as in being sad or down, but just uncharacteristic of yourself. One of my psychology professors told us the other day that you are best judged by your worst days. Even though that seems offensive in general, I think that's the best thing you can ask of someone else. Of course you love being praised for doing well or looking cute when things are going right in your life, but if someone can see you even when everything is going the opposite way you want it to, there's a lot of stock to be held in that person.
I've found it difficult lately to be that vulnerable and that weak to let people see the struggles. Everyone wants to put their best foot forward, with a smile on their face and radiance beaming from cheek to cheek. But when that isn't the case, how amazing is it that people out their can still appreciate that side of you at that time.
What's important to remember is that while in that group of people may by friends and family, there is one never to forget about. Letting God oversee my day to day, whether it be wallowing in self-unraveling or celebrating the fun and new, he doesn't care. He sees that pure soul and perfect self you try to exude all the time. But He sees it regardless of the person you are at each and every ever changing second.
We aren't perfect, people. We can't expect ourselves to be and we can't look for others to be either. Don't just judge someone for their worst day, appreciate them for it.
