So, I am not a saint in the eyes of the Lord, nor am I a demon. Some days I am easily pushed to my limit and I wish to doze off into a deep everlasting sleep. You see, I hide behind shy tears and fake smiles. You will find teardrops on my pillowcase and sentimental words on my pages. When the sun goes down, you might find me looking up at the sky in search of my friend.
The pressure, the light and the crowd? I cannot do it. I feel most invisible in a sea of individuals so please do not shine the light on me because I might disintegrate. You see, I enjoy roaming in the shadows. Just let me sit in the memories of these gallows.
Skin, flesh, blood and bones ... isn’t that what we humans are composed of? Oh wait, is it judgment, assumptions, envy, and hatred? Yes? Well, if so, then I don't like being human; because I hold eyes to see beyond life's disguises, I bear ears to hear the truth of the wise. My lips? Well, my lips speak of an ill mind ... even though it was forbidden at that times.
There are just those days when you make me want to fall into a deep everlasting sleep. The words you speak drift me so far away and if I were to leave the same day I came, here are the words I would say: My friend, do not mourn or shed a tear because you have nothing to fear. This world we live in is cruel! The ones who rule cause pain and suffering. But you, you are strong and mighty. Do not let them take you down! You, my darling, were put on this earth for a purpose! Death is not a threat. Death is nothing to fear. But death is easy, free from worries. Now, life; life is hard, firm, and solid as a stone. Just always remember, you are never alone. If I were to leave this world today, those are the words I would utterly say.
