First off, let me start by telling you that you do not need a man to make you happy! You can find happiness all on your own. If you've experienced your first heartbreak, then you know what pain feels like. It is the absolute worst feeling putting your all into someone and then being let down multiple times. It sucks loving someone with your whole heart and not being loved back the same. Not everyone has the same heart as you though. I've been there, done that, and it's taken me years to finally get myself (somewhat) back together. At least I know that my love was real and I can always say that I did try. I'll always carry the trust issues that I got from that relationship with me and that sucks too. You'll always have your guard up and it's hard to let new people in. But I can also say truthfully that it does get better with time. Lots of time.
Please be patient.
After your heart is broken, you can't expect it to heal super quickly. It will take awhile. It took me a few years. And even after that I still have a soft spot there for him but that's okay. It is all okay. The emotions that you're going through are okay. I've been there too. It will not last forever, I promise. Sit back ,ask yourself if you're finally ready to be happy again, and let life do the rest. It all works out in the end.
No one said it'll be easy.
In fact, it's hard. Very hard. You will find yourself sitting in class daydreaming about the memories, the sweet things he used to say, the laughs you used to share, and how happy he used to make you. That's all past tense now. You're ready to move forward and find happiness again that won't let you down every chance you give it. Let the tears flow if you need to let it out but then catch yourself, wipe your face, and move forward.
What you need to do.
In order to find this happiness, don't look for it in another guy. Look for it in yourself. Do things that make YOU happy. Find hobbies you love, make new friends, spend the money you don't have on food just because it's a good idea at the time. It's okay if you screw up or something happens and he tries to pull you back in. Stand your ground, know what you want in life, and if he or the things you're doing are not what you want anymore, then let it go and move on.
Coming from someone who's been there, it does get better. I have my moments but I've made it clear to myself and to others what I want in a man and what I want in life and if someone or something is not benefiting my life in a positive way, then I get rid of it.
You'll be fine, I promise. Pray about it and just go with the flow. Fate will find its way.
