Hey you. Yes you, the girl who feels as if she is always giving more than she is getting. The girl who has been told one too many times that she is "too much to handle" or "becomes way too attached." This is for you.
There is nothing wrong with you and I hope that you haven't fallen to that belief. You are a special kind. You are one of the far and few between that has a sense of care and compassion in this corrupted world. And because of that, you are one of the best there are. I know sometimes it can be hard to see this, and that you may have been hurt one too many times by people who simply do not understand why you are the way that you are, but believe me when I say that you are not alone. I have been in your shoes. I still am in your shoes. And I know that loving a little too hard can be a real heartbreak most of the time. I spent way too many days cooped up in my room letting tears roll down my face because I couldn't understand why I was giving so much, loving so much, and helping so much, only to receive heartbreak and rejection in return. And if you've been in this position, I know you have felt the same way many times over and over again. But this is for you. Loving too much is never and will never be a bad thing, and we should not let others tell us this.
You may be the one who always stops on the side of the road to give the homeless man your spare change, just to see him smoking a cigarette next time you get off the exit, instead of eating a meal. You may be the one who gives her love and support to people who turn around and use it against you. You may hurt a little more than everyone else because you are so tired of giving and giving and giving. This should not stop you. This can not stop you.
I have tried to become a girl who loves less. I have tried to give myself the courage and the strength that I thought it took to care less and loveless and give less. In this process I learned something important...
You can not change this quality about yourself without losing yourself and your own happiness. Yes, this thing we call love may bring us hurt and hate sometimes, but without our loving, honest, and kind personalities, the world will seem to be a colder place. By giving to others and creating happiness for others, we are in turn creating happiness for ourselves. Loving too hard is not a bad thing. Giving too much is not a bad thing. Putting in too much effort can never be a bad thing. It will only in turn help lead to the happiness that you deserve one day.
Although I have felt much heartbreak and been through many letdowns, I still remain strong. I have found that you can not go into a situation expecting to receive what you give. Give what you feel you need to give and go on with the happiness that you have helped someone. The sadness comes from expecting to be given the same in return. If you do things with all the love that you have inside of you, there is no room to feel sadness. So go on girl, love hard, give more, be you, do things for others and make yourself happy by seeing the happiness in them.
