I don’t know why you did it. Neither of us are perfect in any way. I know we never really got along, and we both said some regrettable things in the past, but I didn’t realize I made you feel this way about me.
We’ve all been there. We’ve been mad at someone for some petty reason and insulted their intelligence, actions, or appearance. We told our best friends how we felt in secret, but we would never actually say it to someone’s face because we knew it wasn’t kind. I’d be lying to myself if I said I had never done this to someone. I’m not trying to guilt those who have insulted others, because heaven knows I’m just as guilty. It goes to show what happens when someone else finds out about the insults and gossip.
So, to the girl who called me ugly, I forgive you.
You aren’t saying sorry, and you probably never will, but I know that I must forgive you in order to receive the forgiveness I so desperately need for every single mistake I’ve ever made.
This doesn’t mean your insult didn’t hurt. Congratulations, you succeeded in making me feel a little bit smaller, a little less confident, a little less proud of who I am. Like every girl, I don’t always love the way I look, and I meticulously go through all the filters to find one that makes me look a little bit better before posting any picture to social media. You can’t however, take away my actual worth. You can never take away the fact that other people love me, or that I can do incredible things.
This doesn’t mean I was never mad at you. I wanted to post something equally rude right back at you. I wanted to call you and tell you how I really felt. But I soon realized, that doing it back makes me just as in the wrong as you. I thought about how I felt, and I couldn’t imagine actually doing that back to someone else. I know you didn’t think I would ever find out, but that’s the thing about publicizing your opinions. Whether you say it verbally or post it somewhere, someone is going to see it, and it will find its way to the person it’s about.
A part of me believes you didn’t really mean it because you didn’t say it to my face, but I definitely know there is some sort of anger directed at me. You probably thought it was funny, but sorry to tell you, no one is laughing.
I want you, and every other girl out there, to know that you are talented/beautiful/smart enough that you don’t need to put other people down to feel better about your own looks or achievements. I know, for a fact, that you are smart and can do anything you put your mind to.
Life isn’t perfect. People aren’t perfect and there’s not a whole lot you can do about that. So, next time, let’s think a little longer before we negatively post about someone else.
