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To The Girl I Was Last Week

You are not Beyonce, you are just broken.

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To The Girl I Was Last Week
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I could not possibly know for a fact if girls my age are going through the same thing that I am.

I have no idea if we are all so indecisive, so unsure, so quick to make a judgment but want to take it back the next minute. Sometimes I sit back and realize "Why did I just do that?" Why did I burn that bridge just now? Why did I just send them an apology, not even a minute after losing my mind on them?

Sometimes I think I'm broken and insane. I constantly feel like I am losing my mind.

Sometimes I feel like I'm Beyonce.

And then I go right back to questioning every single thing I have ever done in my life.

To the girl that I was last week, I am very disappointed. I am overwhelmed by the choices you made. I am struck by the fact that you act so impulsively. To the girl I was last week, I hope you now realize how humbled you need to be. You are not, in fact, flawless at all. To the girl I was last week, I hope you know that the bridge you just burned has lost you so many people. To the girl I was last week, I hope you realize now how much you need to learn to think before you do things again. To the girl I was last week, you better take a step back and see the effect you are having on the people around you. I hope you have learned that healing takes time, and no, you still are not fully healed. I hope you see that you are still cracked around the edges. I hope you take your time figuring things out before you react. I hope you take the time to try and see how much you have changed. I hope you see that your life is not ending.

But to the girl that I am this week,

I am glad you have realized just how strong you are. I am glad you recognize and are aware of the mistakes you have made, and that you know you can build from this. I am glad that you took a second to realize how blessed you truly are. How so incredibly blessed you are. I am glad that you are capable of breathing now. That you can comprehend issues in your life, and find the correct way to handle them.

I am proud of how you have grown in just a week. I am proud that you are taking responsibility for what you say. I am glad to know that you know it is okay to tune out for a while. Put the phone down. I am proud of you being able to recognize your own pain. I am proud that you see your life is blossoming. I am proud that you realize there are consequences to your actions.

I, as well as you, are not the girl you were last week. And we will never, ever, be that girl again.

And no, you, nor I, will never be Beyonce.

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