We all dream of the day that we will open our eyes up to the sun coming through the blinds, our husband right next to us, and our kids running to our room to see if mommy and daddy are awake yet. Which will simply cause a smile to grow upon your face, because that in that one simple moment you realize you got everything you ever could have dreamed for.

I've dreamt of this day repeatedly, and that is what sometimes gets me through the hard times of today. Having that comfort, that reassurance from a group of people that you know love you and will do anything for you, is a feeling no other can bring. I can recall in one part of my life I had received that kind of happiness, but on the child perspective. Don't get me wrong, there were defienetly times where I had not taken to sight of what was right in front of me, but there were others where I would wake up and not have a single fear in the world because I was safe there.

I strive to have a family life of such kind again, but on the point of an adult. When I say no thing could fulfill that level of happiness, I mean that from the bottom of my heart. Even though it had been taken away from me so suddenly, I understand why God gave me that opportunity to see how it is suppose to be.

The only fear is that, what if that all falls apart? Growing up watching my parents divorce, remarry over and over again, makes me think what if there will not be that one person that you will grow with you throughout the years of your chaotic, but wonderful life. What if they just wake up one day and that person that gave you all your security, is gone. That is unavoidable, but I believe that is where faith simply has to come to play.