Love Lost

You constantly text my phone telling me that you want to see me and hang out, even though we may not have sex we cuddle and that’s intimacy in its own. I’m tired of buying you food and being there for you like a girlfriend when you consistently tell me you aren't ready for a girlfriend. I am constantly feeling I’m getting slapped in the face because I’m doing all these things and getting nothing in return. Every day I feel myself liking you more which is just crazy because why would I even waste my time liking someone there isn’t a future with. I just want you to be honest with me and with yourself, tell me how you feel from your heart, stop just saying you aren’t ready. You are wasting time telling me you aren’t ready because while you are “getting ready” some guy somewhere else is telling me that he likes me and thinks I’m beautiful and wants to date me. I’m not asking for much, but I at least want exclusivity because you ask me for all these things but in return you give me nothing.

You can go out today and sleep with someone new and I wouldn’t have the right to care and I don’t like that. You mean the world to me so I want to have the right to care. I want you to want to be claimed, not be force it on you. You are with me constantly anyway, what would be so bad about being my boyfriend? Are you ashamed of me for some reason? If you can sleep with me in private, why can’t you claim me in public? Being the girl that is falling for the boy is never easy, and it is especially not easy when the boy doesn’t feel the same way.

-The girl who fell for you