Thank you for breaking my heart.

When you left, I felt like I had died as a person. I felt like I could not live on my own. When you called me to tell me that this was it, we were no longer going to be "us" I didn't think I could survive. I would never find love again. I would never be with anyone that I could love the way I loved you. I could never find someone that would erase the memory of you in my brain. Every kiss would bring me to your lips and every touch on my back would only bring back the feeling of you. I sat on the couch for days, I couldn't bare to go back to school. I skipped class and you know me, I never miss class. I wasn't hungry and any bite of food made me want to puke. I didn't really drink water even.

Sleeping wasn't really an option because I was up all night and by the time it was four in the morning, and I would finally fall asleep, I would have nightmares of you leaving me over and over again. I cried, a lot. I didn't want to live without you. There was no life without you in my eyes. The simple act of someone trying to talk to me would make me cry. I stared at a tv with a blank look on my face because I wasn't watching the shows on the screen, I was thinking of you and why you left me. I couldn't understand why you would leave me the way you did after everything we said to each other, promised each other and all the things that we swore on, in the end, being together. I thought you were the man I would marry.

You broke my heart into a million pieces that day. When you left you destroyed me. You ruined everything I was and made myself to be. You stripped me of my best traits and brought out the worst in me. The worst part about it all? You stripped me of myself from the day we started dating.The best part about it all? When you left, you destroyed the terrible person I became.

When you broke my heart, you also broke the person you turned me into you. You controlled so many parts of my life when we were together then I guess when I left for college you felt out of control. It became too much for you to bare. I knew that I had to get myself back when you left because that was the only thing that would keep me going. I went to therapy, I made new friends. I practiced a lot. When you broke my heart you gave me my life back. Thank you.

Thank you for tearing it out and making me start over.

Thank you for making me realize I don't need a man in my life, I am valuable on my own.

Thank you for teaching me how to be on my own.

Thank you for giving me freedom.

Thank you for making me realize that love cannot be forced.

Thank you for showing me that someone is more deserving of my love.

Thank you for showing me that there are men who aren't even dating me that are willing to do more.

Thank you for showing me that when you hit rock bottom all you can do is climb back to the top.

Thank you for showing me how to avoid men like you in the future.

Thank you for showing me what it means to trust and to stick to not trust those that shouldn't be.

Thank you for opening my eyes to the life of being single and helping me to love it and never want to let it go.

Thank you for helping me to figure out the things I love and don't love about myself, and then fixing them.

Thank you for pointing me in the direction of my sorority, because I needed a new bond stronger than man and woman, and I found that with my sisters.

Thank you for teaching me that there is nothing better than learning to love yourself.

Thank you for allowing me to love myself and become a better me.

Thank you for breaking my heart, because if you didn't, my life today would be so different. My life today would be stuck in the same sad routine it was with you. I loved you, I cannot lie. I was willing to give up the world for you and while that seems sweet and ideal, I never realized how wrong that would be. How sick is it, to give up yourself for someone else? Not take off work one day or drive the extra five minutes to be with you or skip a rehearsal because it's your anniversary, but to give up everything you have worked hard for to be who you want to be, just for someone else. Not even in mutual terms but all of me for none of you. You showed me how to love. Love so hard that nothing that you could do would ever turn me away. Thankfully, you left me. You set me free and thank you for that. I could never thank you enough for breaking my heart because when you broke my heart and I thought I lost everything, you gave me a whole new life.

Thank you.