I never thought I was the type of person that would get cheated on. I have always had a sharp intuition, been extremely observant of behaviors, and my gut feeling has always been pretty damn accurate. I have always been a bad liar, but can tell when others are lying. While I have always been skilled in my intuition department, I have a major character flaw... I always assume the best of people because that's how I treat others, as best as I can. They say love is blind, and thats no lie.

I fell in love with you fast, you were everything I hoped you would be. Sweet, funny, romantic and just enough mysterious to keep me interested. Things were great, until they weren't. Things crumble pretty fast when you're in a relationship with a narcissist, before you actually notice what and who they really are. I was dumb enough to give you more than one chance, because everyone deserves a second chance, right?

I've spent hours crying over you, stalking your social media accounts to make sure my suspicions aren't true, driving me to a level of crazy even I hate to admit. While I hate you, I want to thank you.

Thank you for teaching me that I deserve so much more than what you ever gave. Thank you for showing me that not everyone is the good I think they can be. Thank you for proving that the phrase "once a cheater, always a cheater" is extremely accurate. If you weren't cheating on or with me, you were cheating on or with someone else. There was always someone else. Thank you for teaching me that it's okay to walk away, even if you're terrified because there are much better things ahead.

I learned a lot from you. I learned that most people's opinions on someone is actually good advice to take. When someone gets overly defensive about something, it's because they are guilty of it. They may be too busy to see you, but its because they are busy seeing someone else. Their exes may be crazy, but they probably made them that way. Relationship's should always get a second chance, the exception is cheaters. Never take someone back who cheated. If someone is willing to cheat with you, they will cheat on you.

Sleeping alone is better than sharing a bed with someone who shares their bed with someone else when you're not around.

You cheating on me is no reflection of who I am as a person. You did the wrong thing to the right person. You hurt me more than you can imagine. You let me feel like I did something wrong, that I wasn't good enough, but really... you were the one not good enough for me. I don't hate you, but I'm disappointed that you turned out to be everything you said you wouldn't be.

I prayed for a good man, and you weren't it.

So thank you. Thank you for teaching me I am so much better than a narcissistic cheater. Thank you for making me stronger than I ever thought I could be. Thank you for making me appreciate the positive and healthy relationships in my life. Thanks for teaching me I sure as hell don't need a man to be happy, especially not one like you. And thank you for teaching me how to spot them out before I fall in love with the illusion they paint.