You sir are the one person I want to thank and hate all in the same time. You sir are the person who hurt me but also changed me. You sir are the person I looked up to but now look down on because you broke me into 1000 pieces and left me there to rebuild this complicated puzzle.
You are the person I opened up to and you helped me through a lot. That was my mistake, opening and talking to someone… letting someone into this life of mine. Every person is complicated in their own way, we all are this puzzle with different pieces that go together and sometimes don’t fit. And even when that puzzle is built and put together it’s fragile because none of those pieces are permanent. It takes one person to break that puzzle and to take the pieces that were mine.
This puzzle was mine and it was the one thing I built but it took one person. The person who I trusted and I let in left my life but left with a devastating impact.
It takes a lot to rebuild yourself and to forgive. This puzzle took me about 2 years of my life to rebuild. It took me a lot of energy. This pain of rebuilding takes a lot of support and people willing to listen. It takes a lot… but after the time it takes to rebuild who you were and build a new you have the ability to learn.
It hurts to see that the one person who you trusted has left you there exposed. This feeling is like no other, this is the feeling of being let down, used and then hurt over and over again. However, after feeling sorry for yourself you realize that it is time to move on.
To move on from someone must start with the stages of grief, where you must hate what happened. Then accept the fate of what happened. After accepting what happened you start to move and become stronger and more defined. You learn that everything happens for a reason and the reason that you let that person in and then had them walk out was extremely impacted on you. It takes a lot in yourself to realize that this happened for a reason.
Two years ago, someone entered my life freshman year of college. In that same year that person left my life. Once that person left and left me feeling damaged I realized that it was time to move on. I moved on for myself and I learned that I wanted to grow.
With that being said I forgive you for everything you did to me. I forgive you for the pain and the hurt you caused. I thank you for making me into a better person and teaching me that life isnt that easy.
