It's scary to know that you may not know where your life will be in about a year. Two years ago, I graduated. A year ago, I was working. Now, I'm back in graduate school about to start the final quarter of my higher education. As an international student, there's basically no stability to what may become my life after graduation, as in addition to my classes, internship, and clubs, and job, I still have to apply to multiple companies per week.

In the past, I used to release stress by hanging out with friends. At 5 p.m. every day, I used to describe a "burst of energy" after leaving my office. As an extrovert, this is still the case, but having all these additional time-based responsibilities occasionally makes me feel like I'm not doing enough for myself, or taking the time out to live life slowly. Constantly multitasking, and looking for overlaps, like working on stuff when I have downtime during other tasks I'm working on, helps me be efficient, but at times the lack of progress is frustrating, especially as time continues to run out.

Basically, at this point, I'm not sure what I'm supposed to be doing. Any free time has the voice in the back of my mind telling me to be more productive, somehow, while having a schedule that encompasses a 46-hour week leaves part of me feeling over-extended, and still wanting to continue social obligations.

Fortunately, most of my social group along with my family have been nothing but supportive of my goals, and realize I'm under a time strain to finish my classes, internship, and find a job. It's only their support that can get me through this chaotic time.