Another year has passed and here we are, kicking off the summer of 2019. Winter has come and gone and now, the sun is shining each and every day (hopefully). Summer always makes me nostalgic about my childhood, where I was carefree each and every day. Somedays I'd be lazy and watch TV, some days I'd go to the park, some days I'd swim... It was always about having fun and doing whatever I wanted to do (or whatever my parents allowed me to do).

Now, however, I'm older and I have responsibilities. My summers have since been filled with working part-time/full-time and taking summer classes. This summer, I was very fortunate to have secured a full-time internship. Of course, this means that this is just another summer where I can't just sit back and relax, like many of my friends are doing.

Some of my friends are traveling abroad this summer, some are kicking it back at home without any responsibilities, some are working, and some are in classes. As you grow up, your responsibilities shift and life will hit you hard. Without a doubt, I am so incredibly jealous of those who are traveling and relaxing. I wish it were me, instead of working in an office from 9 a.m. to 5 p.m. every weekday. I love the experience I'm getting, don't get me wrong, but who doesn't want to be at the beach or curled up in bed with a funny movie?

Every time I go on social media and some someone post a beautiful scene from Spain or everyone sipping on drinks while tanning at various beaches, I let myself have a second where I regret taking an internship this summer. I take a quick moment where I'm envisioning myself in my favorite bikini, with some of my best friends, soaking in the hot, summer sun.

In the end, though, I know that if I could go back, I wouldn't have it any other way. In reality, you can only spend so many days at the beach or curled up in bed before you get sick and tired of it. I get restless easily and I know that it would've only been a matter of time before I wished I was busy working or taking classes. The one thought that keeps me sane through it all is that hard work pays off.