To The People Who Thought I Was Staging My Anxiety, I Hope Karma Bites You

To The People Who Thought I Was Staging My Anxiety, I Hope Karma Bites You

Why would I pretend to be anxious all day every day? Do you think that someone really wants to live their life like this?


It is very typical in society for people to pretend to have a mental illness or other disorder in a crude attempt to get attention. I know of girls who did this in middle and high school because it was "cool" to have depression or "cool" to have anxiety.

These girls would post about it on social media constantly about wanting to die, being too anxious to move, or too depressed to leave their house. I know that they were fake about how they felt because in 2013 girls would do anything to get followers on Instagram. Not only that, but I personally know these girls who did this. You see, it was so "cool" and so "in" to have a disorder like these because they sounded cool. Their names were so long and our seventh-grade minds found that fascinating.

Not thinking that people actually suffer from these diseases and disorders all over the world. I can't say that I faked having a disorder, but I can say that I have been mocked for having anxiety and depression.

I didn't learn about mental health until my junior year of high school. I remember feeling myself deteriorate at a quick rate. My thoughts were consumed with the ACT, AP exams, a breakup, college, friends, etc. I found myself so busy focusing on everything around me that I forgot to focus on me. I never even put much thought into focusing on me until the summer before my sophomore year of college. Until I had learned the mental health stigma, people suck, and anxiety is a real thing, I had spent all my time isolated in my mind. I didn't talk about my feelings for fear that I would be called crazy, attention-seeking, or a liar. Just like what people called the girls who would post on social media faking an illness.

I didn't know of anyone who had a literally been diagnosed with any mental illness and I certainly didn't want to be the first one to talk about it. So I bit my tongue and stayed silent. I stayed silent until I went crazy. In the spring of my freshman year of college, I had a breakdown. It was unlike anything I had ever experienced. The way I felt, the way I shook, the way my mind STILL told me to not speak up about it made me feel like I had no use for the world. I felt as though I was suffering alone and nobody knew what was actually happening. Nobody knew until I broke down to the point of admitting myself to the psychiatric unit. Even when I got the treatment I knew I needed and was on my road to recovery, I still felt as though I couldn't talk about how I felt.

I couldn't talk about how I felt because my parents often mocked me if I told them that my anxiety was so high I couldn't breathe. I was mocked when I couldn't leave my bed for four days because my depression sat on my legs and paralyzed me. I was mocked when I finally decided to talk about what I was going through because "my life isn't that hard or stressful, so why do I feel the need to escape it by pretending to go crazy?" I was mocked when I finally came up with an explanation as to why I thought I was feeling as low as I was. I was mocked because pretty girls don't get sick.

Smart girls don't break down. Girls who have a strong support system don't struggle. I was mocked because the number of Instagram followers I have determines if I am allowed to be ill or not. I was mocked because nineteen-year-old girls don't get depressed. I was mocked before and after I came clean about my feelings and thoughts. This is why people don't speak up when they're struggling. This is what is wrong with society. We think that because someone looks a certain way or has a certain status in society that they couldn't possibly be sad. We think as a society that pretty girls can't cry. We think that people who talk about their dark times are faking it because who in their right mind can talk about the past like it's not a thing anymore?

What I don't understand is why we try to encourage people to talk about the hard times, the dark times, and the in-between times when all we're going to do is mock them right back. How dare I come forward about my struggles? Society has become this place where we can't speak our minds anymore. We can't say anything without fear of being judged or mocked, so listen to me when I tell you that you are allowed, you are entitled to talk about what you feel. And I won't judge you. I won't mock you. And I certainly won't tell you that what you're feeling is wrong.

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I'm A Woman And You Can't Convince Me Breastfeeding In Public Is OK In 2019

Sorry, not sorry.


Lately, I have seen so many people going off on social media about how people shouldn't be upset with mothers breastfeeding in public. You know what? I disagree.

There's a huge difference between being modest while breastfeeding and just being straight up careless, trashy and disrespectful to those around you. Why don't you try popping out a boob without a baby attached to it and see how long it takes for you to get arrested for public indecency? Strange how that works, right?

So many people talking about it bring up the point of how we shouldn't "sexualize" breastfeeding and seeing a woman's breasts while doing so. Actually, all of these people are missing the point. It's not sexual, it's just purely immodest and disrespectful.

If you see a girl in a shirt cut too low, you call her a slut. If you see a celebrity post a nude photo, you call them immodest and a terrible role model. What makes you think that pulling out a breast in the middle of public is different, regardless of what you're doing with it?

If I'm eating in a restaurant, I would be disgusted if the person at the table next to me had their bare feet out while they were eating. It's just not appropriate. Neither is pulling out your breast for the entire general public to see.

Nobody asked you to put a blanket over your kid's head to feed them. Nobody asked you to go feed them in a dirty bathroom. But you don't need to basically be topless to feed your kid. Growing up, I watched my mom feed my younger siblings in public. She never shied away from it, but the way she did it was always tasteful and never drew attention. She would cover herself up while doing it. She would make sure that nothing inappropriate could be seen. She was lowkey about it.

Mindblowing, right? Wait, you can actually breastfeed in public and not have to show everyone what you're doing? What a revolutionary idea!

There is nothing wrong with feeding your baby. It's something you need to do, it's a part of life. But there is definitely something wrong with thinking it's fine to expose yourself to the entire world while doing it. Nobody wants to see it. Nobody cares if you're feeding your kid. Nobody cares if you're trying to make some sort of weird "feminist" statement by showing them your boobs.

Cover up. Be modest. Be mindful. Be respectful. Don't want to see my boobs? Good, I don't want to see yours either. Hard to believe, I know.

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Wearing Sneakers To The Gym Just Isn't Going To Cut It These Days

Going to the gym is more than just working out its about having the right gadgets and outfits to go with it.


I am an advocate of making sure you sweat once a day, I love going to the gym. I blast my music, feel my muscles fatiuging, and sweat it out. As I have been going to the gym more I have noticed that people's outfits to the gym are more than just your average t-shirt and leggings people wear multicolored and matching attire and are geared up with their Apple airpods and watches.

I personally go with an old T-shirt and throw on my freshly washed leggings and my running shoes and I am ready to go, but I see how dressing in the full work out attire has a positive impact on your gym session. Feeling fully motivated in your new matching gym getup is important as you will want to work out harder and push yourself being that you are fully in the right gear. As I progress in attending the gym I want to get an Apple watch and track my data.

It is important to move your body for at least once an hour a day and by going to the gym you are ensuring this movement. Eating right also puts you on track and if you are working out and eating right you will surely soon see your hard work. NoIt doesn't matter what you wear to the gym as long as you are there your making progress. It is important however to stay motivated because in order to get anything out of the gym you have to participate and in doing so wearing a cute gym out fit will only make this better.


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