It's 2018, So Stop Fat-Shaming Me

It's 2018, So Stop Fat-Shaming Me

Ellen DeGeneres once said, "Beauty is about being comfortable in your own skin. It's about knowing and accepting who you are".
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It's 2018 people; stop fat-shaming and love each other.

If I have learned anything in my 22 years of being on this earth, it is that we should love and care for one another. I have tried my best in my every day life to not judge others. I do slip sometimes, again, I'm human, but I try to make up for that by getting to know that person and their situation before making any more assumptions about them. As should you.

I am a chunky girl; I always have been. I grew up in a family that made sure that I ate every piece of food off of my plate before I got up. They taught me bad eating and exercise habits such as eating to fill a void. My aunt always had a saying growing up, "If you're hungry or want something, eat it. It's bad to limit yourself and be hungry". While I now know that's not the truth, it set me up for years worth of bullying and self-confidence issues.

After being on my own, I have started to eat healthier. I drink more water, have cut out almost all junk food and go to the gym six times a week with one day off. I have been working on making myself healthy, not skinny. However, just by looking at me, you may be inclined to call me fat and lazy. This is the problem.

I see this literally daily. I hear people call me a fat-ass, say that if others would just lose a little bit of weight they would be pretty and so many more god-awful things. If I wanted to live my life at 400 pounds, which I don't by the way, then it's not your place to tell me thats a bad choice. If I wanted to eat two slices of pizza at the party instead of just one, who said you could give me a look and hold out my name in a long sigh of dissapointment. I don't judge you when you sleep with eight different men in one week do I?

Listen, all i'm saying is, keep to your own business and love me or whoever else is in your life for who they are and not what their habits are. I'm not saying that eating or living that lifestyle is something I encourage others to pursue, it's the fact that I shouldn't have to say anything at all to them. It's their lives, not mine. You don't know someone's story. They may be battling some serious diseases that limit their ability to do activities or they may have genetics that make it extremely hard to lose weight, no matter how hard they try.

To all my thick and thin guys, gals, and non-binary pals, please don't listen to the haters. You are beautiful, kind, wonderful and deserved to be loved through any stage of your life. You are worth it and I will never judge you.

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To The Person Who Feels Suicidal But Doesn't Want To Die

Suicidal thoughts are not black and white.
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Everyone assumes that if you have suicidal thoughts that means you want to die.

From an outside perspective, suicidal thoughts are rarely looked into deeper than the surface level. Either you have suicidal thoughts and you want to die, or you don't have suicidal thoughts and you want to live. What most people don't understand is that people live in between those two statements, I for one am one of them.

I've had suicidal thoughts since I was a kid.

My first recollection of it was when I came home after school one day and got in trouble, and while I was just sitting in the dining room I kept thinking, “I wonder what it would be like to take a knife from the kitchen and just shove it into my stomach." I didn't want to die, or even hurt myself for that matter. But those thoughts haven't stopped since.

I've thought about going into the bathroom and taking every single pill I could find and just drifting to sleep and never waking back up, I've thought about hurting myself to take the pain away, just a few days ago on my way to work I thought about driving my car straight into a tree. But I didn't. Why? Because even though that urge was so strong, I didn't want to die. I still don't, I don't want my life to end.

I don't think I've ever told anyone about these feelings. I don't want others to worry because the first thing anyone thinks when you tell them you have thoughts about hurting or killing yourself is that you're absolutely going to do it and they begin to panic. Yes, I have suicidal thoughts, but I don't want to die.

It's a confusing feeling, it's a scary feeling.

When the depression takes over you feel like you aren't in control. It's like you're drowning.

Every bad memory, every single thing that hurt you, every bad thing you've ever done comes back and grabs you by the ankle and drags you back under the water just as you're about the reach the surface. It's suffocating and not being able to do anything about it.

The hardest part is you never know when these thoughts are going to come. Some days you're just so happy and can't believe how good your life is, and the very next day you could be alone in a dark room unable to see because of the tears welling up in your eyes and thinking you'd be better off dead.

You feel alone, you feel like a burden to everyone around you, you feel like the world would be better off without you. I wish it was something I could just turn off but I can't, no matter how hard I try.

These feelings come in waves.

It feels like you're swimming and the sun is shining and you're having a great time until a wave comes and sucks you under into the darkness of the water. No matter how hard you try to reach the surface again a new wave comes and hits you back under again, and again, and again.

And then it just stops.

But you never know when the next wave is going to come. You never know when you're going to be sucked back under.

I always wondered if I was the only one like this.

It didn't make any sense to me, how did I think about suicide so often but not want to die? But I was thinking about it in black and white, I thought I wasn't allowed to have those feelings since I wasn't going to act on them. But then I read articles much like this one and I realized I'm not the only one. Suicidal thoughts aren't black and white, and my feelings are valid.

To everyone who feels this way, you aren't alone.

I thought I was for the longest time, I thought I was the only one who felt this way and I didn't understand how I could feel this way. But please, I implore you to talk to someone, anyone, about the way you're feeling, whether it be a family member, significant other, a friend, a therapist.

My biggest mistake all these years was never telling anyone how I feel in fear that they would either brush me off because “who could be suicidal but not want to die?" or panic and try to commit me to a hospital or something. Writing this article has been the greatest feeling of relief I've felt in a long time, talking about it helps. I know it's scary to tell people how you're feeling, but you're not alone and you don't have to go through this alone.

Suicidal thoughts aren't black and white, your feelings are valid, and there are people here for you. You are not alone.

If you or someone you know is experiencing suicidal thoughts, call the National Suicide Prevention Hotline — 1-800-273-8255


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On my path to self love, I've learned so much about myself already and I can't wait to learn more. I've learned I missed music, missed writing, enjoy yoga and other forms of exercise and so many other things. I've stopped holding on to things and people that aren't good for me and have started to let go of the past. Loving yourself can be a real challenge but at the end of the day it's the best thing you can do for yourself. You can't ever expect anyone to love you either in a romantic way or friend way without loving yourself. If you can't see the beauty in yourself how can you expect others to?

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