Today, as I was walking along my school campus, I noticed something strange. I was completely alone. I stood in the middle of the sidewalk crossings and found there to be not one person in sight.
Not only that, it was completely silent as well. Not one bird called. No wind. No sky. Just complete silence.
It was the first time that I have been on this campus that it has been totally silent and empty looking. It had an almost eerie feel to it.
It is strange to feel all at once the feeling for being all alone in a place that is supposed to be filled by people. After all, this is a college campus full of young people.
You get used to the sounds of people all around. You even don't notice the noise anymore. You notice the silence though.
Silence is very loud. I never understood why silence is louder than noise until today.
Today I discovered the reason silence is so loud. Our thoughts are loud. I was wondering how I did on my math final when I noticed all of the silence.
It felt like a massive fist hitting me in the ears. That is why I stopped. In a place that I know to be full of such life was full of complete silence. It made my pulse quicken a bit to know that I was completely alone.
It almost had a twilight zone feeling to it. I think it is funny when we search for complete silence, and when we find it we have to fill it with noise.
I think we drown out the silence because we are afraid of our own thoughts. I think we are afraid to be alone with them. I know I am afraid. When I have nothing to work on, homework-wise, my thoughts begin to go rampant.
Sometime thoughts are a good thing, but there is such a thing as thinking too much. Thinking too much causes the mind to explore depths that shouldn't be explored in one's mind.
The mind buries those things for a reason. They are not supposed to be found, but in the silence they can be. That is why I think the silence is scary. I fear what I might find.
