I Was Taking The Wrong Medicine That Was Fit For Me

Sides Effects May Include: A Guide To Mental Drugs

This is what doctors don't tell you while writing on the prescription pad.


After most diagnoses, doctors prescribe medication. People with cancer are treated with chemo and radiation, diabetics watch their blood sugar every few hours and take insulin, and something as simple as an ear infection is treated with antibiotics. Mental illness is no exception, but there's no pamphlet you receive when you're diagnosed. All you are told is the medication will take four to six weeks to work, and you should start to feel better.

News flash, that's not always true.

I was prescribed a medication I expected to be on for a while because someone told me they had been on it for years. I lasted five months on that prescription before increasing the dosage. That didn't work, so the doctor put me on an additional medication. That medication made me so sick that I could barely drive, so my doctor gave me a prescription that made me incredibly drowsy. I was taking up to four-hour naps just to get through the day, then getting eight to nine hours of sleep at night. On the weekends I would sleep until one in the afternoon. I was exhausted. I was sad all the time, but I never did anything about it because I thought the medication was working. I thought it was my fault I was upset all the time.

After talking to a few friends, I found that the medication I was taking was in fact not working. While searching for a new therapist, I was also in search of someone else to prescribe my medications. The office I go to has a nurse practitioner on site. She prescribed me with a common drug most people are familiar with, Lexapro, but it wasn't combating my lowest lows. I was allergic to the next medication prescribed. I would itch everywhere all day long, so I stopped taking it after only two weeks. Finally, after a total of a year and a few months, we have found a prescription that I'm not allergic to, doesn't make me drowsy, and keeps my mood stable. I thought I was the only one doing trial-and-error with my prescriptions, but after talking with friends that are medicated for their depression, I found that they too were struggling to find the medication that worked best. The first medication I was on made my friend horribly sick, and others found the extremely drowsy medication the best fit for them. No two people react the same to each drug.

Here's what you need to know about medication when you get your first prescription.

1. It won't start working the next day

It won't start working the first week. It won't start working until at least a month if you take it consistently. If you don't take it consistently, you risk not being able to feel better at all.

​​2. This may not be the prescription you stay on, even if it worked at one point

The medication might work for a few months, just like mine did, and then wear off. Your body might become immune to it, just like pain killers. If you notice your mood starts to drop consistently while you are taking your medication regularly, talk to your doctor.

3. Get your prescriptions approved by a psychiatrist or a nurse practitioner specialized in mental wellness

I had my general practitioner prescribe me my first few prescriptions, but because she isn't specialized in psychiatric disorders, she couldn't help like my nurse practitioner can. She knows far more medications that can help because it's what she looks at daily.

4. Do your homework and ask questions when talking about what medications you should take

Some anti-anxiety drugs are addictive, so if you have an addictive personality or serious drug addictions run in your family, those medications could be more harmful than helpful. Read up on medications on different trustworthy websites like WebMD to see what side effects may occur. Ask your doctor questions. They are more than happy to answer them for you and will not force you to take any medications that you feel uncomfortable with.

5. Don’t become hopeless if you find your medication isn’t working for you

Doctors ask me what past medications I've been on, and I've been on so many that I lost track. I got bogged down by the fact I still felt like garbage all the time. However, we eventually found a medication that works. There's hope in the end. It just takes some time.

Medication can make a world of difference when it works, but sometimes it can get worse before it gets better. If you're struggling to find the drug that works for you, don't worry, because you're not alone. Talk to people and ask what medications worked for them and what didn't. Keep constant contact with your prescriber and tell them exactly how you're feeling physically and mentally. There is light at the end of the tunnel.

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Understanding What It's Like To Live With An Anxiety Disorder

Having no control over your own mind is scary.

Anxiety disorders are no fun for anyone. Most people don't understand what it's like to be someone who suffers from one. They come without warning and without reason. As I am writing this, I am awake at an ungodly hour due to this stupid battle my mind is having with itself.

Let me help those of you who do not understand what this illness is like.

At random moments, I will get this building worry and fear that something isn't right. Everything could be just perfectly fine, but my mind will trick itself into believing that something is wrong.

It will convince itself that my life is falling apart. I will worry about one thing one minute and talk 90 to nothing then start to worry about another thing. My mind constantly switches back and forth and will convince itself that things are worse than what they really are.

All the while, I'm trying so hard to calm myself down... but it is impossible.

It will send me into a depression. A depression that causes me to hate myself for being so crazy and irrational at times. This depression is the worst part. It causes me to want to space myself from the world and everyone around me. It causes me to feel alone with my illness, and it will cause me to be too terrified to talk those that are closest to me about what it is that I need from them.

I feel needy, and I'm repulsed. But I can't help it.

The hardest thing is for me to find peace with myself during the depression stage. Most times, it switches back to worry and will keep me up all night. Staying up all night causes me to feel irritable the next day, which in turn causes those around me to steer clear. Which in turn causes me to go right back into depression and battle myself for being mentally ill.

You see, there's something those of you who don't suffer from anxiety need to understand: WE CAN'T CONTROL IT.

No, it doesn't make us crazy. We don't need you to tell us that we are acting crazy. We are already well aware of this and telling us that will only make our condition worse.

It will come at the most inconvenient times. When it happens, just please be patient and understanding with us. The attack will eventually pass, and when it does, we'll be back to normal. The worst thing you could do is bring up anything we were previously worried about.

Doing so will only trigger another attack. Understand that it's you and us vs. the illness. We hate it, you hate it, we're on the same team here. The best thing you can do during an attack is to just listen, and know that there are times we need you to hold us, and times we need you to leave us alone. Know that sometimes you'll be the trigger for the attack.

Don't take it personally. And please, for the sake of humanity, don't tell us that we're overreacting, that we need to calm down, or that worrying isn't going to make anything any better. If we could stop worrying, don't you think we would have already?

Dating someone with an anxiety disorder isn't easy, at all. It requires giving that person a lot of attention that you normally wouldn't have to do. That doesn't mean the sufferer constantly needs you to be stuck up his or her butt 24/7, but it does mean that when he or she is under attack you need to be there.

If someone you love is having an anxiety attack, ask them what they need. Most of the time they know what they need from you to help make it better, but they're too scared to tell you. Let them know that you genuinely want to help in any way that you can, and be okay with it if they tell you nothing and to just listen. Get to know their illness better.

Everyone's anxiety disorder is different.

Try to understand what it's like to have absolutely no control over your mind, and be there for that person. They need you most when they feel as though they have turned on themselves.

If you or someone you know is battling an anxiety disorder, seek help.

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8 Unconventional Ways To De-Stress We All Need

Moody isn't always the move.


When the stress of finals hits a little too hard and Moody is no longer the move, I use these tricks as a way to stay positive and power through the semester!

1. Plan a Trip


While it's not always financially feasible to travel all over the world, I've found that when I take 30-45 minutes to plan a 'bucket list' vacation, my stress levels almost always decrease. Granted, I'm a Type-A person so planning gives me extreme joy. I love to look up cheap flights on Google Flights for a date in the future and then plan a trip around it; I'll go onto TripAdvisor and find an ideal hotel, a list of things I want to do, and restaurants I want to eat at. Maybe the trip isn't happening YET, but who knows? At least you'll have it planned when you actually do get to visit that dream destination in the future!

2. Make a list of short-term and long-term goals

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Sometimes I need to feel like I'm being productive when I'm not actually being productive. A bit of an oxymoron, but nonetheless I love making both short term and long term to-do lists of sorts as a study break. This is super easy to do in those odd breaks in classes or even between studying for different classes! Just grab a piece of paper and write down what you want to get done for the rest of the day, week, year... The depth and extent of the list is truly up to you!

3. Online. Shopping.

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Online shopping is definitely a de-stress method for those that love fashion like me. So if you have to be dragged into the mall, this suggestion is probably not for you! I personally love visiting some of my favorite store websites (looking @ you Nordstrom) and looking at some of the new pieces and upcoming trends. Being able to be enveloped in something completely unrelated to what I'm studying for is much needed at times!

4. Go for a walk around campus/ town

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Sometimes I start to go 'stir crazy' if I've been sitting inside for too long! I love putting in some earbuds and going for a walk around campus if it's a pretty day, just to get a break from staring at a computer. And, okay yes, I usually treat myself to a coffee while I'm out (CG is the move if you're at Baylor)!

5. Get some friends together and make a treat of some sort


Sometimes at the end of a long study day, my friends and I just want to do something low-key and fun. A lot of times my friends and I will go to the store and get a couple of ingredients to make a dessert together. These do not have to be elaborate. Some of the things my friends and I have baked this year include a cookie log, peep s'mores, and pre-made cookies. We're not exactly honing in on our culinary/baking skills, but it's fun to spend time together and have a yummy end result!

6. Make some tea, diffuse some essential oil, and do a face mask


I absolutely love doing a 'self-care' night every once in a while. When I have a test I, along with many others I'm sure, can get super stressed and anxious! One thing that really helps calm me down is putting on a face mask, making myself some tea, and diffusing some essential oils. I use this time to read my Bible, catch up on a TV show, or just listen to music. As important as it is to prepare well for the test/final, it helps me so much to schedule in some "relaxation" time as well!

7. Use a journal either to reflect on the day or sketch


I'm going to preface this by saying, I am not artsy at all. However, sometimes getting out a journal and sketching/doodling is a great way to de-stress in the midst of studying! I also really enjoy using a journal to write reflections/prayers/ quotes I love as a way to break up the studying as well.

8. Make a presentation on something you're excited about


This is for all you fellow type-A personality, planners like me! One of my favorite ways to relax and reward myself after studying is to make a presentation (google slide presentation to be exact) of some events/places/plans I'm excited for. I've made presentations detailing what my friends and I will do in the summer, travel plans, and a study-abroad information presentation for my parents, amongst other things.

Hopefully, these ideas will help get y'all through the stress of the final exams/tests/quizzes to come. Though unconventional, these are just some of the ways I remind myself that there is ultimately more to life than school and studying!

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