it was only a dream.
but it felt so real.
it felt as if my soul left my body
leaving me alone, stranded in the deep
dark, black hole of my thoughts.
it felt as if the woman whom i was raised to be
was now a shell i could only hide under
& allow me to pretend i was a gift, not a curse
it felt as if time was ticking away my mere existence
and my life was slowly being chipped away
it felt numb and raw, like there was nothing left of me except for
my mangled fragments of consciousness.
it felt as if i wasn't real- that instead i was a mere piece of someone else
i could feel the tremors of my heart
as i plummeted down that cliff- oh, that terrible cliff.
i awoke, covered in sweat and tears
& couldn't shake the feeling that
maybe it wasn't a dream.
but i like to tell myself that it was.