Secrets Of An Insecure Girl

Secrets Of An Insecure Girl

Behind Every Smile, Lies a Multitude Of Insecurities.

You may see a girl with a smile on her face, but behind that smile lies the secrets of an insecure girl.

Ever since I can remember, insecurity has haunted me. It may subside for a time, but eventually it worms its way back into my life and I can't seem to shake it. It's a combination of fear and judgement that fuels the fire. The fire ignites the insecurity that I will never amount to anything, never meet the expectations that I have placed on myself and ultimately, the insecurity that I will never be good enough. Behind the laughter and every smile lies these insecurities. Behind this front, behind this facade, is a girl who holds tight to a multitude of insecurities.

I am that girl. The girl who constantly turns a casual "hello" or look in her direction into a detrimental moment. You see, when you looked in my direction or casually said "hello," the insecurities creep back in and I instinctively fear the judgement of others, and that wonderful gesture has once again turned into a scenario where the "you're not good enough" insecurity worms its way back in. But, I don't make it known. I don't voice these hidden insecurities. But rather, I smile back and hope I've pulled it off.

Everyday I struggle with insecurities. I struggle with the idea that I will never be good enough. But throughout this past year, I have slowly begun to find security in the one who spoke me into being. Throughout this year I have been able to find comfort and security in Jesus Christ. Yes, I may still struggle with my insecurities everyday, but I can finally breathe. And when I feel an insecurity worming its way back in, I can take a deep breath and be reminded that His love covers me.

I am a girl who struggles with insecurities, but I serve a God who reminds me that I am worth more than many sparrows.

"Are not five sparrows sold for two pennies? And not one of them is forgotten before God. Why, even the hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not; you are of more value than many sparrows."

-Luke 16:6-7

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5 Perks Of Having A Long-Distance Best Friend

The best kind of long-distance relationship.

Sometimes, people get annoyed when girls refer to multiple people as their "best friend," but they don't understand. We have different types of best friends. There's the going out together best friend, the see each other everyday best friend and the constant, low maintenance best friend.

While I'm lucky enough to have two out of the three at the same school as me, my "low maintenance" best friend goes to college six hours from Baton Rouge.

This type of friend is special because no matter how long you go without talking or seeing each other, you're always insanely close. Even though I miss her daily, having a long-distance best friend has its perks. Here are just a few of them...

1. Getting to see each other is a special event.

Sometimes when you see someone all the time, you take that person and their friendship for granted. When you don't get to see one of your favorite people very often, the times when you're together are truly appreciated.

2. You always have someone to give unbiased advice.

This person knows you best, but they probably don't know the people you're telling them about, so they can give you better advice than anyone else.

3. You always have someone to text and FaceTime.

While there may be hundreds of miles between you, they're also just a phone call away. You know they'll always be there for you even when they can't physically be there.

4. You can plan fun trips to visit each other.

When you can visit each other, you get to meet the people you've heard so much about and experience all the places they love. You get to have your own college experience and, sometimes, theirs, too.

5. You know they will always be a part of your life.

If you can survive going to school in different states, you've both proven that your friendship will last forever. You both care enough to make time for the other in the midst of exams, social events, and homework.

The long-distance best friend is a forever friend. While I wish I could see mine more, I wouldn't trade her for anything.

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The Power Of Journaling

Slowing down in a fast pace world.


In a world where everything is moving so fast pace, I have found comfort in taking small moments to reflect on the blurring images around me. I have always loved to journal, but recently I have found a system that works very well for me.

One habit that I have newly formed is creating a section in my journal that I like to call "Get Out of My Head." Life moves very fast and sometimes my thoughts can't keep up. This causes stress, anxiety, sadness and even the feeling of loneliness. I have created this section in my journal to be a safe place where I can just scribble down whatever is taking over my head, but there is a trick.

Like I stated previously, I have always loved to journal, but I never found ultimate comfort in it because I would go back and read what I wanted to remove from my mind. This was causing me to reexperience what I didn't want to. I highly suggest having a place in your journal that is essentially a flame for all th4e thoughts you want to rid of.

On the contrary, have a section in your journal where you love to look. I try and fill this section with happy thoughts, quotes, verses, and gratitude. This makes journaling and reading your entries something to look forward to, rather than not.

In conclusion, journaling is unique for everyone and it takes some time to figure out exactly the right way. But once you discover the safe place that journaling can be, it can change your life forever.

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