I don't know about y'all but last semester was the roughest shit I had ever been through. Like what the actual hell! I really thought that I was putting in the effort and whatnot for my classes but, boy was I wrong. The amount of effort I put in my classes sure didn't reflect in my grades. I mean yeah I had a rough semester with friendships, boys, adjusting to the new school and roommate issues but I thought I was handling school decently, but I guess that's where I was wrong.

Either way, not only does 2019 bring the new year, but it also brings the new semester and this semester will be my semester. Like this semester I plan on bringing my all, I need to do well in all of my classes to make sure that my overall is good. So that I can bring up the shitty GPA I got last semester. And when I say shitty GPA I mean shitty GPA. It was terrible.

I thought that I had at least gotten a higher GPA than what I received but obviously this semester I need to fix that and make sure that I know that I can do better. Because I actually am really smart but I just need to put in the effort and if I focus I can definitely do it. No distractions, boys were such a huge distraction it sucked so much and unfortunately it was super important to me even though it really shouldn't have especially because I have much more self- respect and confidence for myself. I just don't know what mindset I was at the time and what I was thinking.

Second semester, a second chance for me to correct what I did wrong last semester. Last semester was just a trial semester, my classes were so different from what I have lined up for this semester. So hopefully me knowing that I will otherwise suffer if I don't put in the effort for my classes, will end up helping my situation and force me to study. I just really need to get back into the groove of things and find different accommodations for when things don't work out the way I'd like it to so that I can succeed better.

I just need more time to make sure that I have the right mindset for things that end up not going the way I'd like it. Instead of being pessimistic I want to be more optimistic. I used to be super optimistic but when things started to go downhill quicker than I thought things would I just lost all sort of hope. But this semester I definitely am feeling luckier and I believe that I have a better chance of succeeding because I can definitely see myself doing better especially since I know what am looking forward to.

Check back with me at the end of the semester to see updates on what happened.