Those of you who know me know that I like to write. I often don't have time. But tonight I'm angry. I'm disgusted. I'm fearful.

Yesterday, the Supreme Court overturned Roe v Wade.

What does this mean for me legally? I live in Missouri, a trigger ban state. This means that almost as soon as Roe v Wade was overturned Attorney General Eric Schmidt made Missouri the first state to ban abortion.

This criminalizes health care providers in Missouri who are working to provide abortions except in cases of medical emergencies that threaten the life of the pregnant person or “create a serious risk of substantial and irreversible physical impairment of a major bodily function of the pregnant woman.”

So what the fuck does all of that mean?

In short? Those of us with the reproductive parts to carry or birth a child no longer have bodily autonomy.

If I were RAPED I would be forced to carry this child and give birth to this child that will be a constant reminder of one of the most traumatic events of my life. Likely, the father would not be in the picture and I would be forced to raise a child I did not want, with no financial support from the rapist. This applies EVEN IF the child was formed through incest.

Roe v Wade is such a massive overturn that it is allowing lawmakers to ideate overturning other laws of the same gravity. Men like Clarence Thomas are working to set back a nation that they will soon be leaving. Not only did he vote to overturn, but he has also called on the court to consider looking at other major cases, including Obergefell v. Hodges - giving the right to same-sex marriage - and Griswold v. Connecticut - protecting the right to contraception.

Personally? My fiancé and I don't plan or want to birth more children. We use several methods to help prevent this from happening. But guess what? I COULD STILL GET PREGNANT. I'm 22 and will likely be having sex for decades to come, so another pregnancy could occur despite our efforts not. And we deserve, no, I deserve to make the decision for my body if I want to endure another pregnancy.

Sure, the statistics say that over 90% of recorded abortions are elective. But I truly believe no one is putting themselves through such an invasive and traumatic experience for the hell of it. A tiny percent? Sure, I'll entertain the idea for the sake of playing devils advocate. But more likely? The scared 13 year old or exhausted 37 year old don't WANT or NEED to put down their true reason. But truly?

You might choose to terminate your pregnancy because you had complications in previous pregnancies and want to eliminate the chance that something worse will occur this time.

I might want to have an abortion because I have a history of depression which puts me at a higher risk of prenatal or postpartum depression and anxiety. These illnesses too can lead to the death of myself or my child.

The stranger at the store might want an abortion because she never wanted to have kids and the guy she hooked up with last night lied about using a condom and her birth control failed.

We have no obligation to tell anyone why we want to terminate a pregnancy.

We are already in a housing shortage. A formula shortage. LIFE is expensive. And so is caring for the life of another human. Women (and transgender men, and ANYONE ELSE with the ability to carry or birth a child) are not required to live by your agenda to control their body. It is an injustice to require someone to carry and birth a child they don't have the ability to care for.

Don't tell me foster care and adoption are an option. There are already thousands of children waiting to be placed in a caring and clean foster home, or to be adopted.

Don't quote a Bible verse telling me God created the life before it was placed in the womb. The God I was taught about loves regardless and guess what? Even God gave free will which is synonymous with pro choice. The government is quite literally not allowed to place their theological agenda on the citizens of the United States.

I am disgusted that my friends and family with difficulty conceiving, difficulty carrying a child to term, or difficulty birthing a healthy child won't have access to abortion. To make a choice.

This decision affects all of us. And if you think it doesn't affect you, I beg you to think again.