RAPE IS REAL. One in five women and one in 71 men will be raped at some point in their lives. It is not a man in a dark alleyway, or some creepy stalker. I was 17 and it was my first semester at college. He was my friend. Actually he is a lot of peoples’ friends, quite well known on campus. In eight out of 10 cases of rape, the victim knew the person who sexually assaulted them. I went to a party with some friends like I did most weekends my first semester at college. First I had been drinking, a lot. Next was just a tad too big of a bong rip. I ended up passed out on a couch. Funny, I do not remember falling asleep.
Nonetheless my designated driver wakes me up -- my rapist is going back to campus with us. I pass out in the car. I wake up out in the back of my building and my rapist, being the “nice” guy he is, offers to walk me to my triple dorm. When we somehow get to my dorm without being stopped by the night hosts -- God I wish they would have stopped us. We made it up my second floor room. We get in my room and I realize sober me left drunk me a mess. He suggested I crash in his room, so I did. His roommate was asleep just a few feet away and I figured I was safe. I passed out in the bed and he, like the “gentleman” he was, takes the floor.
When I wake up I am still very drunk and high, so I must not have been asleep for long. I am cold so I assume I am naked. I can not move but i feel him inside me. I still remember his face as he tried to get inside me. He looked over at his roommate to make sure he was still sleeping. Then he finally asks if this is okay. I can not speak. I can not move and he continues. I start sobering up, but by the time I am sober enough to do anything he is done. I curl up and try to sleep and he decides to take the floor. I feel gross and used but I do not run because I thought I had nowhere to go. I only ended up telling a few friends, and I never went to university police. I was scared I, the victim, would get in trouble. Now my rapist gets away free and no one will know what he has done to me.
