"I just wanna quit..."
My blood pulsed with negative energy and my mind was overflowing with pessimistic thoughts. In a burst of melodramatic emotion, I pounded out a text message to my sister.
"I just wanna quit college," I said. "Everything I have done lately is one step forward and three steps back."
The rational side of my brain knew that I didn't actually want to quit college, but my irrational side began plotting an escape route.
I'm sure I could find a job somewhere...doing something else...anything else. I could figure something out.
As the irrational side of my brain began running out of escape options, the rational side began wondering: What good would quitting do?
The answer became abundantly clear: Quitting is easy.
If I quit, I would never have to pull an all-nighter ever again, my stress would be lifted, and life would be perfect...right?
My sister responded perfectly to this question by stating, "In all of those steps, forward or backward, you are learning. There will always be trials and tribulations and things you don't understand, but God will provide a way."
With the rational side of my brain in full control again, I began finding comfort in the truth amidst my sister's words.
"...God will provide a way."
Through every trial I face and every single thing I don't understand, God will provide...God knows.
Although quitting is easy and may feel like the only option sometimes, quitting isn't trusting.
There will be things you don't understand. You will want to quit. You will want to seek an escape route. You will want to do what's easy.
Although trusting is hard, the benefits in trusting are far more rewarding than quitting. God sees everything: the beginning, the middle, and the end. When you trust in God's understanding and not your own, you are trusting in the fact that God will provide a way.
God knows what the destination is for every battle you face...
