Chipotle's release of queso has me feeling some type of way. The reviews are conflicting, and yet I'm still stoked because I know queso comes in many different sizes, so I will not body-shame the sweet cheese. You see, I have an undying love for queso, and I'm not the least bit sorry for it.

I was 14 years old when I vowed to have and to hold onto queso forever. It was during my annual summer visit to my dad in his small town of Illinois. I had ridden my sky-blue Wal-mart Huffy bicycle to the local Mexican restaurant with my childhood best friend, Sierra, and a few of her other friends. I fumbled with the menu. There were so many options, and I had a limited allowance. But the decision was effortless for the others, so I let them go first.

"Water for me, and I'm ready to order. I would like some queso," said Sierra. A round of "same" echoed around the table soon after.

I was astounded that they were all going to make a meal out of the chips and queso. I had never heard of such a thing. "Just queso?" I asked the group, with skepticism in my left brow. We were all short on money, but I couldn't wrap my finger around the fact that they were ordering a sauce for lunch.

They nodded matter-of-factly Sierra spoke up, "Yes. Just queso. It's not just cheap. It's not just a sauce. It will change your life." A chorus of drawn out "changeeee yourrrr lifeeeee" followed. The temptation of queso was drawing me in. I looked at the chips. They seemed emotionally detached from their long-time love, salsa. It was apparent that their relationship with salsa had grown stale.

At this point, I couldn't resist. I was flooded with empathy. The chips needed queso to fill their void, and I had to make that happen before the stale relationship turned the chips stale, too. "I'll have the same," I stated matter-of-factly.

I haven't stopped thinking about queso since that day.

So, what is queso? In the Spanish language, it means "cheese." In the English language it means "melted cheese with a bunch of other stuff to flavor it so people can obsess over it; chips' true soul mate; liquid comfort." Queso can appease any emotion, whether devastated or elated. Some say it has mystical powers. I now understand why salsa wasn't enough for chips. Queso is savory. Satisfying. Sexy.

The only thing that has come close to providing me the same level of comfort as queso is Chipotle Mexican Grill. Comfort in taste, yes, but even more-so comfort in knowing they care about the planet. Queso used to be the one thing that set Chipotle back from being the ultimate Mexican grill. I used to have to travel far and wide to suit my queso cravings. But this is no longer the case, as Chipotle has released their own queso.

Until now, the company's earth-consciousness was the Achilles' heel of a potential Chipotle queso, because preservatives are a major component of this sauce. Now that they've figured out how to make it the right texture and taste using only real ingredients, all I want to do is smother my burrito in this sensual sauce (as a 20-something-year-old, self-proclaimed queso connoisseur, I have come a long way from the days of ordering only chips and queso). I didn't know anything was missing in my life, but thanks to the glorious marriage between Chipotle, chips, and queso, my life is complete.

P.S. If you're not ordering your burritos wet, you're doing it wrong.