Wats up, fam?
Wait…you did not just say that. Is that the best starter you have?
[2 days later]
Yo! Wassup!
Clearly, I have yet to see the best.
I’ve figured you out.
I know your ways.
You’ll say whatever, whenever
your cold heart desires to get what you want.
You’ll pretend to show interest.
[ How was your day? {11:16 PM}
U busy? {11:31 PM}
Let’s do something! {12:02 AM} ]
You’ll pretend I’m important.
Until…
20 minutes after you win.
You’ll pack up and leave.
[ I mean, you gotta take that victory lap, right? ]
You’ll make some excuse.
“You see…I promised…”
“I need to work on that paper.”
To make me feel better about myself.
We both know you never promised anything.
We both know you don’t have a paper to write.
We both know you just like to play the game.
So, you’ll leave.
{Press Play}
You’ll leave me there feeling used and worthless,
like I will never be good enough for anyone,
that I’m not worth it.
These feelings will continue from 24 to 168 hours.
They’ll come and go like flashbacks.
Until…
I feel at peace.
The care has shifted.
I’ve redeemed myself.
That’s when,
That’s when you’ll come back.
You’ll do it all over, again.
And I’ll fall for it, again.
And the cycle continues to spin,
and s p i n,
and s p i n,
and s
p
i
n.
Until…
I let go.
I let you go.
