I have always been someone who tends to over think things. I can get very caught up in my emotions and feelings. Sometimes this carries over into conversations I have with others. I feel as if I need to change my words, my thoughts, my interests just to keep the conversation interesting.

This mind set varies with different people. There are people in my life that I feel very comfortable around and that understand me. The overthinking comes when I meet new people or when I am in a new atmosphere.

This poem embodies that mindset. It expresses the feeling I have in that moment and the words running through my head:

Resting easy on your words

A melody between your lips

Waiting to be heard

Shifting positions to please your mind

Turning inside out to face you

To sit so still and feel so quick

I run after my own thoughts

Creating room for the sounds you love

I can change

So that I can face you

Your words paint an image

That is imbedded in my vision

Oh to see without the filter that covers my eyes

Maybe

Just maybe

I could face you

I feel safe when I lie down

And smile through my window

I pretend over and over I don’t care

I close my eyes and change my words

A moment I wrap myself into

To face you

Is to be you

I am not quite sure how

To love

Is to carry the doubt

In my head you are just a person

In my mind you are just a creation

Through my eyes you are an image unseen

I continue to rest

And embrace a changing truth

That follows me as I move further from you

Sinking inside myself

Retracing my steps

Turning inside out

To face you