I was jealous
Jealous of her pretty colored eyes
Her light colored hairs and perfect waves
Her milky skin that protected her
I was jealous that without effort she could look so beautiful
So radiant in the sun
A pretty face
No marks and no damage
No colored skin that labeled her
She was the pretty girl that grabbed attention
I envied and yearned
I wished I could be more like her
But how could I
My eyes were boring
My hair was too dark with tangled curls
My skin was too tanned compared to hers
I was left as a victim how matter how hard I tried
I had no shield
With effort and chemicals maybe then could be beautiful like her
Turning darker in the sun
Not a pretty face
Marks and damage
A color that labeled the world to judge
A girl that didn't grab attention but shamed for trying
I wished and prayed
How could I be like her?
I was jealous
Jealous of a white girl