Poetry saved me. It allowed me to connect with others through experiences and enriching thoughts. Never underestimate the power of words, the power of story, and the power of genuine feelings. My only hope is that you are able to connect and not over analyze my writing. Writing from the heart is always much more profound and therefore, allow yourself to be carried away by the words you are about to read and hopefully, connect with.

Independent

Both a blessing and a curse.

A sign of weakness and of strength,

mature and immature,

a soul half empty, half full.

It means growing up on your own,

having to be your number one fan;

Because depending on someone else,

depending on their promises and words,

only leads to chaos and regret.

This is why I am on my own.

I love it, I cherish it

but it has been hard when it is no longer just I.

When I share my life with someone,

I must open up.

I feel vulnerable and a stranger

as I'm a foreigner in this territory.

I think past experiences have me fucked up,

"Everyone has let me down and is out to hurt me."

That is what plays in my mind,

but see being independent has taught me a lot.

I am strong.

I am beautiful.

I am worth it.

I am unique.

I am perseverance.

I am passion.

I am love.

If I am with you,

all I want is

your loyalty, respect, and time.

Be honest with me

and you'll receive unconditional love.

I've never caused pain to others or put them down;

if anything I have been there for them,

to help them back up.

I am the most forgiving soul

and that is why some take advantage,

but after today I say no more.

No more chasing if one doesn’t stay.

No more worries if one doesn’t call.

No more putting others first.

No more "sorry's" to fix for your mistakes.

I am not becoming cold,

I just know I am worth it through it all.

I miss loving myself to the bone.

I have always been there

with patience and love,

I deserve the same treatment back.

So, if anything,

my independence is a blessing.

One which many wish to have

and one that has nourished my

Body

Soul

and

Mind.

It is one that I will always hold onto in this journey of life.