Well, you did it. You wasted my time, and yours. You think you played me, and I guess you could say you did in some definitions of the word. However, you actually played yourself.
We need to stop defining "playing" someone as a dynamic in which the player wins, and the other person is left broken-hearted. Actually, all that is broken in us is our pride. You, the player, on the other hand, lost a lot more than I did.
Please let me explain.
I know both of us have a story. Your heart has been through various adventures and heartaches just as mine. You have your pages where it hurts to look. You have achieved great things. You have goals. As do I. But I am here to add one more loss to your list:
You lost someone who probably actually cared about you. Cared enough to not trust their gut feeling and try to see your heart. You lost a supporter. You lost a friend. You lost someone who would grow with you as a person. You lost someone you could laugh and cry with. You lost me.
Now, I am not saying that you can not easily replace me with some other girl who will probably end up falling for the same qualities I did, but you will never find another person exactly like me.
So, in this game for two (or however many other people you have played), I won. You see, I actually did not lose anything. I lost someone who did not care about me. I lost someone who did not respect me. I lost someone I could not trust. I lost someone who obviously did not support me or my heart.
Thankfully all these loses will allow me to gain someone who does everything you did not. Someone who respects and cares for my heart as a whole. And honestly, that is okay with me. Now I know in my heart, without any doubt, that I lost something that was not good for me.. which means I can only go up from here.
I hope that you eventually see that you will always lose this game you are playing. You will never come out a winner. In the process, I hope you stop before you do too much damage to that heart of yours. Because you deserve happiness too. I hope all those good qualities about you do become genuine, instead of just something you use to reel in someone's heart. Please, respect yourself enough to become the person I know you can be.
As for me, I do not wish you any harm. I respect you too much to do so. I hope you reach all your goals and find all the happiness you are pretending to have. My heart is healed, and I am in a lot of ways a better person because of you. You taught me not to settle. I hope that you stop settling soon. Because when you settle, you forget what you deserve.
May the odds be ever in your favor.
