Everyday when I walk up to the cafe at Northwestern, Pita Chips and Hummus are taken from the shelf and put on the counter for me before I even pull out my ID card. It is basically the only food I ever buy from the cafe, and the entire crew of workers laugh and joke with (at) me about it. I don't think they know my name, but they know me as the pita chips and hummus girl. Nice.
Last week, there was a newer girl that isn't usually there so I had to actually order. When I said, "I'll have pita chips and hummus," the usual cafe employee yelled from the back, "She's gunna become a pita chip and hummus." Yup. The thing is, I like what I like. I don't change anything that doesn't seem to need change. If the pita chips and hummus taste good they're going to keep tasting good. I don't try to fix what isn't broken. I feel really safe and guarded when I let things be.
One of my favorite books of all time is The Perks of Being a Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky. There is a very well-known quote in that book that says, "We accept the love we think we deserve." To be honest, I have thought about that quote a lot since I read that book my sophomore year of high school. I have contemplated what exactly accepting love is. What do I think I deserve? I have a song that has been stuck in my head for years. I sing the lyrics whenever I'm in empty hallways (and then I find out it's not empty and it's awkward).
Anyway, a lot of you have probably sung this song in church; we sing "Christ is enough for me." We sing about how we want more of Him. We sing about how we want Him to be our everything, but we let the love of people define us. We let broken love be enough for us. We eat our pita chips and hummus and we accept the love we think we deserve. We are so blind to the power of God's love. We are so blind to how small we are accepting. We are not enough for God, but we are everything to Him. We can not fathom that. We can not fathom how God can love every single person relentlessly forever.
Everyday I want to accept His love more. I want more. He has so many purposes for me and for my life. He is teaching me that I need to live loved, and I need to follow Him. I'm done walking with Him, but wandering off. I'm done walking with Him, but looking for short cuts every step of the way. Pita chips and hummus taste good now, but revival is coming. Redemption is coming. Christ is coming, and He is enough for me. Accept the love you do not deserve.
