I guess you could say that I'm the type of person who puts other people's needs in front of mine. No matter where I am or what I am doing, I'll always be there for those I truly care about. I like making people happy. It is my way of showing them how much I treasure our friendship/relationship.
Some people say that I'm "too nice," like it's a bad thing. What's wrong with being nice to the people you cherish in your life? They tend to question my actions. Asking me: "Why would you do this? Why don't you focus on yourself first?"
In my mind, they didn't understand. I do these things as an act of kindness. In a world where people tend to care about no one but themselves, I wanted to be different.
Unfortunately, I tend to meet people along the way who would initially gain my trust but would only be there if they need something from me. People like you. I thought I was special to you. But, I was not. To you, I was just another person who you could easily manipulate.
You didn't exactly care about me the way I cared about you. You didn't consider my feelings or reactions. You only cared for the fact that you knew I would always be there. If you ever did me wrong, you would apologize but repeat the action in the future. You know that it would hurt me but you chose to do it anyway. But, you always knew what to say in order to regain my trust. And it works every time because I believe that people can change. This may be harsh, but I know deep inside it's the truth.
At first, I gave you the benefit of the doubt. Finding some sort of excuse why you're acting a certain way or why you're always asking something from me. I would hope that it ends soon but as time passes by, it only got worse.
Finally, I'd realize that you aren't staying in my life because you care about me. You're staying because you're benefiting from my presence.
My friends would tell me that I should just leave you and that I should "respect and love myself." But it isn't something an individual could do in an instant. It simply takes time.
I'm not dumb. I know what's going on.
So, one day, I'll be tired of pleasing you. I would refuse to do anything for you. I'll just drop everything and let you go. Because you've crossed the line. I may be a kind and loyal person, but it doesn't mean you can walk all over me. I have my limits as well.
You'll realize that no one was ever there for you like I was. I was one of the few people who truly cherished you and you took advantage of it. That's your loss, not mine. Some people say, "you won't know what you have until it's gone." But the truth is that you knew exactly what you had. You just never thought you would lose it.
