Living my life I always looked back. That "never look back" saying never made sense in my mind. It wasn't until I met some amazing people and learned some hard lessons that I realized living in the past was only making my life harder. Since I was little I have been through a lot, and now I know that these experiences only shaped me into the person I have become but at one point in my life the past consumed me, made me think "What did I do wrong?" "How could I have changed it?" and "Will I ever be the same again?". Now these questions spun around in my head daily, until one day it just clicked... I had to make the change because no one else was going to do it for me. And that was where my self love and commitment began.
Since then I have learned to let my hair down, dip more than my toes into the water, and fend for myself out in the big world. Yes it's scary, and no I have NO idea what is going to happen tomorrow but I do get to do something new every day. I get to make friends and vacation across the world (if I choose), I no longer let things I have been through stop me from doing things I will do.
This past summer I made a bucketlist of things I want to get done before I die. Yes, I know, cliche but it has helped me open my eyes to the amazing world around me. I finished the last year of high school (senior year) in a new school with new people doing new things I never thought I would do, both good and bad. However my mindset went from looking into the past to "live with no regrets" and I can truly say becoming present has been the best thing that I have ever changed.
When I was younger my mom used to tell me that I needed to "live in the present" meaning my head was never really in the right place at the right time. It hurt a lot of my friendships and even thoughts on myself. Today, I totally "let my hair down" and feel the wind blowing on my face at the beach. I am so grateful for my mindset changing and how in college I get to be me and meet all of the people God has meant me to meet.
So if you think you're stuck in the clouds and you want a sign to show you to become present and really make a change in your life, this is it and you should for sure figure out who you are and live how you think you were meant to.
